Sorry if I seem annoyed.. Let me refresh your memories...

This is my worst enemy.. When you display signs of this, I get HIGHLY annoyed. It's unreal.. If I was the asshole I want to be, which is way worse than the one everyone thinks I am now, you would def not want to be my friend. You should be congratulating me on my patience instead of getting mad @ me being irritated by you!

And by you, I mean any and EVERY person this applies to.

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So, I pretty much held someone @ gun point....

Not just me, but I'll just leave the other names out... Why am I discussing this on Myspace? Prob b/c it's "all good now" haha... How hoodneck is that.. How do you smooth things over w/ someone you could've killed?

I love the USN, lol..

Anyway, I just wanted to share that, and to say that I think I finally met the man of my dreams! Not really, b/c it's nooooooot even like that (jic SOMEONE'S SISTER DECIDES TO SAY I'M GETTING MARRIED NEXT WEEK) but he was cool as fuck and I just wanted to share that.....

I LOVE the USN...

I seriously feel like I chilled w/ nothing but Navy boys all weekend, which is false, but I did for a hot minute... Other than the ones I've been friends w/ for years, that is... Love you, Jesse! Good seein' ya on Saturday! lol

Oh, and btw... Remember after the fight where I broke dude's leg, how I said I wanted to calm down? Yeah, well just copy and paste that blog into your memory, change a few facts.. Jesus, I really need to calm down and just staaaaaaay outta shit..

Maybe "Steven" and "Robert" shouldn't start shit around me! Then I won't be tempted to knock on doors where people are being held against their will!? Mhm. And maybe I won't join in the "festivities", either...

Maybe someone will just fucking kill me, already.

"Last night I dreamt of Guacamore, again...."

I had the strangest dream this morning.. Would say night, but I def woke up from it @ like 10 am, sooo. I dreamt of the end of the world. I'm officially unafraid of the apocalypse...

It was such a weird ordeal. It started out w/ me and my family living back @ Willoughby.. 8419, not 8535/8536 (only Willoughby heads will know that!)... And it wasn't like it was a surprise.. The whole world was waiting for it, just in the most calm way.. No one was running around looking for bomb shelters in Willoughby, etc.. But that's how it felt growing up.. No matter what happened in VA, us kids didn't know about it.. Isolated as hell...

But anyway, I have/had this best friend Simara (Maudi), and she lived behind me.. Well, in my dream, she and pretty much 1/2 her family lived there again.. We were staring @ each other thru the back door windows (I wish I had a pic of the infamous Breezeway to show what I mean) and I was like, WTF!?!?? We both kinda walked towards each other mad slow, then freaked out.. It was in the here and now, 2007, but she looked like 1996, the best summer ever! Well, a lil older, but mostly the same.. Like I do now.. Just bigger ;)

ANYWAY, after I went thru the tears of that whole thing (prob cried in my sleep), Lucious and Lauren (my sibs) kinda bullshitted w/ me in the backyard and then for some reason, I started to repent.. Oh wait, they went in the house, and THEN I looked up to the most awesome sky and asked for forgiveness..

What... the hell......

After that, we talked a lil more about if we thought it was really going to happen, and we all figured that it prob would've started @ midnight if it was... So Lu and I went to walk around like errrrrrrbody in Willoughby does, and all of a sudden, our vision starts looking like a kaleidescope.. Well, mine did, but in the dream, he told me his was, too.. After a few mins of that, mine turned back normal and I thought, hm, maybe that's all that's gonna happen.

Buuuuut I was wrong... My brother and a couple of other people start kinda floating in this liquidy WHATEVER it was, and so did I, but they had fire on them also.. Not engulfed in flames, just a ring.. I remember begging my brother to repent right then and there, before it was too late. We were all foating towards the sky, but I was so afraid that my brother was going to hell that I kept begging him and rushing him.. After he finally did, I just woke up.
What the fuck is that, man???

I haven't had a dream that crazy in a grip... I always wake up from the amazing ones like that tho.. In an instant.. But damn...

So weird.. I've been obsessed w/ wondering what happens after we die lately, so it's prob just a culmination of all my paranoid delusions.. I dunno...

Jesus....

Yanno......

You get real used to listening to everyone else talk after a while... No one really GAF what I have to say, obv, or they'd realize that I don't GAF what they're telling me....

Drama is apparently the new chain letter. Everyone wants to forward theirs to me.

This def doesn't pertain to one person. However, it prob does pertain to you if you feel like it does.

Not too happy....

about Rosie O'Donnell leaving 'The View'... NOW who will combat Elizabeth Hasselbeck and her retarded ass views on EVERYTHING...!? Rosie was the glue that held my own sanity when EH started in on one of her stupid ass tirades..

Blasphemy! I don't want her to leave! But @ the same time, fuck changing.. She's on some ol' DGAF shit and I, of course, can appreciate that... Maybe I can get on that bitch.. MY View would be a lot worse, however, b/c I'd def slap the dog piss out of Elizabeth..

I will never understand how someone w/ so little credibility can have SO much to say about every fucking thing. Bitch, you were like, 4th runner-up on Survivor.. WTF does that make you an expert in? Not even your own SURVIVAL, trick!

Ugh.. W/e, I have some shit to do so I'm out this bitch...

So many shows, so little time...

311's coming to VA two days before my birthday!! Plus KMK 8/13 @ The NorVa, Kingspade @ Jaxx 5/13.. And those are just the days I'm saying.. It's me and Brandi.. There's obv more dates that will be attended on those last two tours lol..

Cinematic adventures, yay!

This week, we (us.. you know) saw Disturbia (Lynnhaven), Night at the Museum (Cinema Cafe), and Ghost Rider (also CC).. I'm happy about this.. I can't breathe w/o cinematic adventures!

I enjoyed all 3 movies.. The graphics in GR are siiiiiiick nasty.. NatM, too.. It was kid cute, but not in the way that makes me want to vomit..

Aaalso, Skipped Parts came on this week, and I watched that last night w/ Jessica and Nicky.. Well, I walked in to them watching my recording, but it was pretty much the beginning.. I LOVE that fucking movie, man.. "Hank, what's that Indian thing you're makin?" "Maccaroni & cheese."

Bwahaha..

"Your mother's a whore!"

"Isn't she looooooovelyyyyyyyy..."

Yes.. She = music, and she is beautiful!

I've been jammin' all day to Stevie Wonder, Bonnie Raitt, Hall & Oates.. Etc, etc.. I def need some karaoke in my life now, lol..

I even went back to the old "I miss ____" days and played some Hanson, lol. I feel lke I'm 16 during home school w/ nothing to do, just listening to maaaaad music..

Aw...

"I never thought... thru looove we'd beeeee.. Making one as lovelyyyy as sheee.. But isn't she loooovelyyyyy, maaade from love..."

Saw 'Disturbia' today...

Went w/ Pickens, Lauren, and Jessica.. Good movie.. Is it >> Rear Window? Hm.. About thattttt...

W/e, b/c Shia's in the new Indiana Jones movie, or @ least he will be. Def in pre-pre-preeeeee-production right now, but yeah. He's officially been cast and it's ON LIKE DONKEY KONNNGGGGG...

During the trailers they showed like 2 diff Shia films.. Woohoo!

Marriage is coming.

Trust me.

LOL.

PS I <3>

"I'm THINKING of a number..."

I hate that credit report comm'l, but that's not why I'm here...

Do you have a friend/friends that SWEAR in their head that they're smarter than you, altho you know that to be FALSE AS ALL HELL, THANKS??? It's starting to irritate me, really. I just want to tell this person "YOU AND I BOTH KNOW DAMN WELL..." but I don't think I'll feel as vindicated as I would want to. So now I'm forced to listen to this person talk like he/she created the fucking wheel or some shit..

STFU! I can think of, off-hand, 4 diff topics where you were COMPLETELY wrong w/ 1/2 the shit you said to me, but I just sat there listening. OMG. It makes my insides hurt. Really, it does.

My SOUL is crying, and these letters are my tears...

One day, old chap. One day.

You can call me selfiiiiiish...

Ok, so, what do you do when you decide you just might want a child after all? I've come to the conclusion that I need a baby. Not b/c I want one right nowww, but I also don't want to be 'old' when I have it, and I'm already semi-dreading the age of 25. I wake up from daydreams/actual dreams w/ that number haunting me.. Altho that's more about unresolved youth issues gone by than my actual age.

But the kid thing, I'd like to have something of me to be around when I'm not. Maybe I should just write my memoirs. Then I'm guaranteed to love it, haha. So fucked up. Maaaybe I should wait, lol.

Honestly tho, I can see myself raising a kid to be like me. Maybe not exactly, b/c I'm a lil too much to pass on to a child, but as far as music and things like that go, I want another me. Fuck the father's wants and needs. I need a smart child that I won't grow to loathe, and the only way I can make sure of that is to raise it myself, right? Unless the father is just like me, but I haven't had any luck on finding someone even close. Fuckin' A.

K, the moment is passing. I think I'll just do the memoir thing. Hm..

Or will I???

See ya in nine months, bwahaha!

So there's a new Silverchair song

w/ the lyric "When I'm paranoid, I see walls behind walls, behind walls"... Wow.. Makes me feel a little lovely, considering all the personal issues that have been haunting me for quite some time now..

Exactly 12 years of silent suffering...

My, how time flies...

Yet again...

I find myself sick as all hell. I've been ill for going on 3 days now. I mean, I was already going thru the allergy motions, but this is killing me.

I just LOVE the taste of mucus in the morning...

I seriously need to find out why I'm DYING lately.

PS I just noticed that everything on here starts w/ an 'I', lol.

P-Town BALLIIIIIIIIIIN!!!

OMFG.

KMK shows.

Whatchu know about that?

Or this???



P-Town BALLIIIIIIIIIIN!!!

The Kingspade set = CRACK, thanks..

But that's all I have to say for now...

Other than the fact that the P-Town they're actually talking about is Placentia, CA, not Portsmouth.. BUUUUUUT, like the sign says...

PORTSMOUTH. Where I was delievered into this crazy world..

So wait, you think I like you like THAT???

Why are boys so stupid? Not all, but damn.. Enough of them..

Last night was HILARIOUS, and only a few people know why..

PS Brandi, before you even make the comment, if I haven't called you to tell you yet, I'm sorry! <3

K anyway, yeah.. BOYS. Boy, oh boys... Not only can two play "that game", but one of the two does it so much better, it's insane.

Bet it sucked to learn that one, hm???

I'm smarter than the average bear, and now you know...

[It's MIKE'S SUPER SHORT SHOW!]

There are most certainly no hard feelings b/c I just wanted to prove a point, and now that I have, we can resume the cute lil bullshit!

Game on!