I had a dream about you last night...

Weird. It felt so real, too. Sooo real.

I still want make that mockumentary... Do you remember what I'm talking about? W/ the paparazzi shots, haha..

Very interesting..

What's more interesting is that in the dream, I told you about the moment that I realized when and why it all went sour, and the part that I played.. There was someone else there, but it wasn't in any kind of way significant, as this person would never be able to express themselves in the same way..

Two different levels..

Damn, I know exaaactly what I have to do, I just don't know if I want to do it..

I know what I want the outcome to be, and if it's anything other than that, I'll be highly annoyed.

Recently, I came to the conclusion that I will make amends w/ the world, let it be, and w/e happens from there, it just happens. Making amends doesn't = making friends, so it's not like I want people back into my life. I just want everything laid out in plain english and settled. Nothing to dwell on, no one to "hide" from, etc.

Soon as that happened, I was GOING to blog about it, but I never got around to it.. One of the people I immediately thought of afterwards hit me up days later.. I didn't want to do it after that b/c I didn't want it to seem contrived.. None of this is, that's why there are no specifics..

It is what it is, just like everything else.