I think I have a hernia....

A paraesophageal hernia, to be exact. Wouldn't that suck?? How do you find that out w/o being raped by Dr. Money?? Jeeeeeeeeeeez.. As if I don't have enough problems..

My Gma's sister died. I think yesterday. My mom told me yesterday when I was @ Brent's, and she was on the phone w/ my Gma when I called. Either way..... Jeeeeez.. Even THAT is causing me more headache than it should. I don't even want to think about that vomit-inducing shit.. Are solutions permanent?? Like, do permanent solutions exist?? Not in my line of work.

So much shit on my mind, it's ridiculous... I am a firm believer in escapism, so I've found ways around most of it, lol. Btw, Shaaaaaaay omfg, everything had us so fuckin' weak last night, haha.. Tell Josh I said ty lol and OMFG I DEF JUST REMEMBERED THE FRUIT BY THE FOOT YOU GAVE ME, WOOHOOOOOOO..

Sanctuary!

I need it. I kinda have one, but sooooooomething tells me...........

Nothing lasts forever, nothing but regret and bullshit. Bad decisions last a lifetime, don't they? LOL.....

Morgan, where you be @?? I need to talk to yoooouuuuu, honeydear..

My world gets better & worse @ the same time, all the time.. WTF!! My mood is already set to 'busy'... Which I'm not, not physically. It's my BRAIN that's busy... I don't even have time to think, all thought time is taken up unvoluntarily, but that's just me..

I don't mean for this to sound like I'm just having a horrible time w/ people/life etc.. There's an incredible amount of stability compared to previous months, cuz like I said before, Ka is hell-bent making me more human.. Humane?? Hm, maybe not so much, as I am still a sadistic asshole, but I found a lil Charmin..

I've had a lot of fun recently, which is what I always say so that just goes to show.. I have fun all the damn time, more than the average ho, I suppose.. I know what I'm NOT doing, so it's ok.. It could all be worse, but let's not think about that! I'm striving for the opposite effects.

Hm, totally forgot what I was about to say next... It was probably just a heavy sigh laced w/ laughter.

Ha, I just came up w/ some sick shit but I most def deleted it.. You'll prob see or read it eventually...

Oh, and btw.. Guess who's not coming to dinner?? My book, apparently. I haven't written in a grip.. Not like scary status, just a grip to ME.. The current situation will prob bring about a lot of notebook writing, which is what I've been heavily avoiding ever since I stopped avoiding it. Does that make sense??

It's me, does it really HAVE to?? No, lol.

Neither does this awesome segue into the new RuPaul video, which reminds me SO much of the one for 'What What (In The Butt)'... Put that bass in your walk!! That's my shit, haha....



And here's WW ITB;



Ahhhhhh... Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....