Ohhh... FUNNY how QUICK the plot thickens...

As SOON as I post that shit, I get a call from someone telling me that you're fucking THEM over as well.. And they're in a car, w/ NO clue about what I just said..

KEEP FUCKIN' PLAYIN, cuz you're in MY sandbox.. I'll bury your ass so fuckin' quick..

"Aaaaaaand Iiiiiiiiii aaaaaaaammmm teeeeellin' YOOOOOOOOUUUU..."

That it'll be more than a BURN next time....

You better talk faster than I swing, bitch.

Bitch, don't you NEVER EVER EVER...

think you're gonna just get one up on me...

You think you can just SWIRL your happy fuckin' ass around, wrecking shit left and right until it's the way YOU WANT IT, and then just *POOF!* be gone on a bitch???

Fuuuuuuuck you. Fuck your new friends, fuck your new life, which is really mine, just reduced, re-used, and re-FUCKING-cycled.

I'm twice as nice, but second to NONE. Fuck w/ that.

If you thought it was gonna be cool to drop bombs all over the place, but then leave ME to clean up the mess, you've fuckin' lost it..

I'll cut you nice and deep long before that shit ever sticks.....

God bless the pencil.. The name on top of the list changes once a fuckin' week, I swear. I'll see you before you see me. Count on it.



Rebecca Bush doesn't care about black people.

Well motherfuckin' well...

What a random ass day today was... It kiiiiinda began w/ the hilarity of a high Sean watching Superbad w/ me @ Scotty's.. We were all weak as a bitch, per usual.. Etc etc blah blah went home, got up.. Went to Lynnhaven w/ Angel and basically the whole damn family.. We end up parking randomly next to Sean's Mustang.. I only realized it was b/c of the necklace on the rearview that I'd just been fingering (sshh!) a few hours earlier.. QUITE a few actually b/c I was def in bed by like 4am, and this was around 3pm sooooooo.. Either way, THE ORACLE LIVES!

ANd so does SUNNY, who did a LOVELY job making my Ma happy b/c her store had 23 phones out by the time I ran into her, good lawdy! Worrrrrrd up, SUNshine.. What it dooooo lol..

AHHH.. Obv, got up w/ Sean and Scotty, btw.. After ^, and then randomly during the trek.. I also ran into LYZETTE who I ONLY see @ random. There hasn't been a planned meeting b/t us in like 2 years, lol. Somehow it works out tho, b/c we run into each other eeeeeverywhere.. Aw, my Lil One.. Always workin' some random job..

Hm, I also saw AJ and his wife, and a few other random (word of the day) people.. Spent quite a bit of time in there, even tho I was on FIRE in every store. Apparently Lynnhaven thinks heat makes a nigga want to shop, b/c the bitch was on ROTISSERIE in every store. Thank GOD the actually walk-around shit was cool, or I would've stayed in the fuckin' truck. Damn all that.. I had on a hoodie, a doobie wrap, AND a beanie.. Fuck w/ me, I'm over being all sickly.

At least I THOUGHT I was, until I went to the fuckin' Joe Camel Cigarette Soiree '07 - AKA some RANDOM ass party in Aragona.. I felt like the Mother Hen after some drunk ass bitch tried to tell us on the way out to be careful, etc, b/c she's only 18 and going to ASAP. A, I know mad young people who have, B, who the FUCK are you again!??! Ask me how weak I was when some Lil Miss Muffet bitch tried to tell everyone to STFU.. I was like, "REALLY, SHOW ME ONE PERSON IN THIS BITCH THAT CAN SHUT ME UP..."

Aaaaand there you have it, folks. I was still a loud bitch.. Not really a BITCH, cuz I was drinkin' and feelin' like a funny bitch.. I was LOOOOOOSIN' ITTTTTTT over some fuckin' 40 year old dude there that was JAMMIN'... AAAAAAAAAASSSSSKKKKKK MMMMEEEEEE how fucking WEAK Shay and I were when he fell in the kitchen!?!? Ashley, too.. AND THENNNNNN this bitch who was making fun of him, SHE just straight dropped to the ground in a SPLIT.. I fucking LOST IT right along w/ Shay.. OMFG..

"We got a goddamn Pussycat Doll in this mafaka.. Tighten up your buttons, bitch!"

LMMMMMMFAO.. I was talkin' all sorts of weak shit in front of her.. Not even to be a dick, but b/c it was SOOO fucking funny. Like, the bitch was DEAD in the middle of a sentence and she just hit the fuckin' splits.. This bitch tryna BRING IT ON, when it's already been BROUGHTEN.. Oh wow.. I wish to GOD ya'll could see how she just immediately hit the ground, and had THE most bewildered look on her face possible, like SHE was more shocked than we were.. And theeeennnnn.. Htf you just gon' do some shit like that, and expect us to think you're sober!?!? Sheeeeeeeiiiittt...

Oh, oh oh oh... Some other shit just got me irritated as FUCK, so ONCE AGAIN, I must end this abrupt as fuck...

THIS bitch.........

Happy Thanksgiving...!

But honesty, fuck the lot of you, lol.

There is SOOOOOOOO MUCH I want to blog about right now.. You couldn't possibly understand.. BUT, now is not the time.. I've got some places to go, and people to see.. AS USUAL..

I will share this tho.. MOOOOOOOOOOOOST DEEEEEEEFFFFFFF ENJOYED THE FUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK out of the two KMK/Big B/Dirtball shows Brandi and I recently traveled to..

Hooooooly SHIT. First of all, I ♥ THE PISS OUT OF MY EXTENDED FAMILY... And the local ones, too! Heather and Julie drove up to the MD show, which made it that much more awesome.. Picasso was there.. Mad people..

But I can't get into all that b/c I don't have time!

DLSJGHLJSDHGLKDSHGL AUUUUUUUUUUGH!

I CANNOT wait to upload the pics, and show an interesting comparison that I realized a day late.. Haha.. B, you're a funny dude..

AAAAAAAND SO AM I...

"___ __, ___!" "Funny, that's what I put on my Christmas list!"

__________________________________

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I can't even think right now, that's how fast my brain is working.. Nutty..

And there's most def a Silverchair blog coming up here soon b/c I've just recently been lauded w/ all sorts of worldly revelations and I pretty much HAVE to blog to keep my sanity.. My sinuses are all fucked up, and I SWEAR it's b/c I can't blog..

BUUUUUUT I'll get to that @ another time.. OMFG. My life is just...

OMFG.. SO I FUCKING FIIIIIIIIIINALLY RAN INTO SHERRITA.. And @ Wal-Mart of all places, the one on Military.. AND she saw ME first.. I fliiiiipped the fuck out instantly, which I expected to do.. I musT muST mUST MUST ask her for any and every pic we ever took so I can make copies.. I hope she still has that shit.. Anything works right about now, I just want to SEEEEEEE it.. I told her about the storage shed. Ending it w/ that before I slit my wrisssssssiiiiiiike b/c I'm in too good of a mood..

Rachael Ray's E! THS is amazing, btw..

AAAAAAND ABRUPT CUT!

This is the shit I'M tryna convey to these hos...

[From my Sub Noize rat/aka P-Town Jess]

"Heh, but yeah I read your latest memiors of a dgaf'er...sounds like some nonsence I'm used to, you see I'm a commit-a-phob, so basically I watch on-again/off-again's unfold on a daily and they all come to me for the advice...yeah if only they'd take it! Fuck I'm single for a fucking reason!"

HELL TO THE MOTHAFUCKIN' YESSSSSSSS WHY CAN'T BITCHES JUST LISTEN!?!? WHYYYYYYY!?!?

I would KILL to have someone just rewind and replay all the GENUIS ADVICE/ANALOGIES I've been spewing for a little over a week... OMFG!

"I don't even need to mark the dates you'll do something dumb. Dip that WHOLE MOTHERFUCKIN' CALENDAR in paint! You keep asking me to let you prove it to you, but I know for a FACT that I CAN'T TRUST YOU NOT TO DO THE DUMB SHIT!"

I am convinced that Lifetime movies are full of white women b/c YA'LL BITCHES NEVER EVERRRRRRRRRR LEARN. EVERRRRRR. And this ain't even ABOUT what some would think..

I'm fuckin' MISS CLEO in this bitch, LET me tell YOU. I have PREDICTED W/ A SURREAL ACCURACY just about everything that could've happened this week.

Minus the fact that I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO WORK, THANKS TO MY MA BEING, WELL, MY MA.. WHAT THE EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF does that have to do w/ ANYTHING.. I'd get my ass chewed FIRST... Every step forward comes w/ two GIANT LEAPS BACKWARDS, I stg.. I keep tellin' ya'll. God himself doesn't want me to do a goddamn thing, lmmfao. Just be the PROPHET that I'm starting to worry that I am.. Cuz DAMN, have I been calling people out left and fuckin' right here lately. And DAMN if I haven't been BRUTALLY HONEST, so if there's something you want/need to know, holla @ a bitch. I got this here, nigga.

I've been the biggest cunt possible for some of the best reasons imaginable. If there's ever a problem, don't hestitate to tell it to a bitch who GAF b/c I'm beyond DGAF right now.. My number one saying is "It is what it is" and that's fucking THAT. Bitches wanna trip on some ol' 'Back Like That' shit, wellllll have fun w/ THAT ONE. Did you hear Ghostface!!?!? Nigga MEANT IT haha.. I love how this has literally taken me like 2 mins to type, that's how PUMPED I am right now for NOOOOOOO goddamn reason.. MOST DEFFFF 1:14am but I don't have to work in the am, so w/e.. Just know that IIIIIIII am DYING inside.. Not even the way I felt before.. Literally weak. So many random things keep happening.. I was never meant to lead a normal life, that shit is just WOOSH, oooooouuuuuutttttttt the fucking window now.

THANKS IN PART TO YOU, MY DEAR.

*mumbles something along the lines of "LISTEN TO ME, YA DUMB FUCK!"* under her breath, then just says it all, and then some*

Bwahaha, I'm tellin' you, a bitch keeps it FA REALLY REAL around these parts..

She said she want a HOOD NIGGA...

Well, she GOT ONE...

I love this song...

Tooooooooo death.. "If you keep losing meeeee, you're gonna be BORED..."

And you will be.

I don't think it's possible for me to keep my insanity a secret any longer.. Something has tipped the balance.. And now the friends that I love, well.. They've all lost their minds.. Smoke some pot, shoot some heroin.. DO SOMETHING... Keep me from ________.

This can only end violently.... Not even what you're thinking.. It's what I'M thinking... I've never been this far gone in my LIFE... Better hope my insurance kicks in before I finally up and do what I so desperately want to... I need to be mentally comatose, and soon.

One wants to fly over the cuckoos nest.. It looks so much more rational, calmer, more COMPLETE outside of the box..

I will be the new Mr. Brooks.

Is that bad? Is it bad to want to kill people? I don't think so. It's such a common thing, yanno? Think about it. People get killed every single day. It happens, like birth, just opposite. I know plenty of people who do plenty of things, yet I don't know any killers. Not that I know of.... Why don't I do me, and be first on the scene?

I wish you a merry Christmas, and a happy New Year......

Iiiiiii would love NOTHING MORE...

[Nov 11th]

than to be an extreme cunt right now. Buuuuuut that was yesterday, new day, new happiness/anger.

HOWEVER.............. Raychal, I fuckin' lovE, loVE, lOVE, LOVE you, lmmfao.. I was about to KILL that bitch!

Lemme just jump riiiiiight into that.. We went to Raychals w/ Lil David to kick it or w/e, I'm in a bad mood (who knew) b/c some females never fucking listen, and we walk in to the apt only to have some fucking EYEBALLIN' ASS, PEROXIDE'D THE FUCK OUT ASS, WHISPERIN' TO OL BOY BUT CAN'T SPEAK OUT LOUD ASS, BEAT ASS BITCH starin' and runnin' that gator like she wasn't gonna get called out.

Ask anybody.. I HAAAAAAAAAAAATE people who stare. Male or female, young or old. Take a gander, then MOVE THE FUCK ON... But noooooo.. B/c SOMEONE decided to slut it up in a school girl outfit (which, w/e, it's a Sat night.. do your thing), this bitch felt the need to look her up and down w/ the NASTIEST look on her face. BITCH, have you seen your roots lately!?!? Prob can't see out of her eye sockets w/ all that make-up blocking the fuckin' view.

Buuuuuuut! I was trying my hardest to be respectful of the apt, b/c I'd never been there and I wasn't about to kill the party by killing her.. Howeverrrrr, when I went to go hug Big James, I almost let that shit FLY.. And STILL, her lucky ass got spared.. That is, until Raych comes down and starts asking me why I look upset.. I kept tellin' her it was nothing, like I ususually do, but she was like "No! Fuck this, Lisa.. If someone in this house is pissing you off, you better fucking tell me!".. Straight buckin' on me until I was finally like, "IT'S THE BITCH W/ THE BUCKET O' EYEBALLS" and I said something else female-friendly and she was like, "AHHH there's only FOUR females in here.." She named them all but the one I was talking about, and as soon as she told me she didn't know the girl, I was like, "OH WELL THEN IT'S THAT BITCH OVER THERE ON THE COUCH W/ THE FUCKED UP HAIR AND MAKE-UP THAT'S ABOUT TO GET HER SHIT SPLIT!"

Good GOD, ya rude BITCH! Haha.. Raych told dude she was w/ that the girl had about 5 seconds to leave before she beat her ass.. I was like, FIVEFOURTHREETWOONE K GO! lmmfao.. I talked so much shit to this scrap metal ass bitch.. She's like a 10 cent stamp.. Jesus.. Rach put Jesse on the phone when I was refusing to tell her what was wrong, so he heard the 565475678 asshole comments and was weak as hell.. I was like, "THIS BITCH SCANNIN' ME LIKE I'M A FUCKIN' UPC.. I FORGOT THIS WAS THE MATRIX, WTF.. IF I WAS HER WACK ASS, AND A BITCH LIKE ME WALKED INTO A PARTY, I WOULD LOOK AND THEN LOOK THE FUCK AWAY, BUT THIS BITCH OBV THINKS I WON'T KILL HER. SHE NEEDS TO GET THE FUCK OUT.. WHYYYYYYY WOULD YOU DO THAT.. I CAN SEEEEE YOU.. DID SHE THINK I WAS JUST GON' STAND HERE AND NOT SAY SOME SHIT???" EEEEEETTTTTTTCCCCCCCC...

After THAT pops off, and the shook as bitch is putting her shoes on, some dude w/ her and ol' boy gave Raych a mean ass look so she bucked off and told him to get the FUCK out etc, and got all in his shit.. She was shoving him outside, ready to start wailin' on dude.. He had the AUDACITY to smash a beer bottle in front of her car.. Big James randomly pops up in a tee-shirt and some boxer briefs, lmfao.. He had to scoop her up before she went Smash Adams on that dude.. Shit was WEAK..

Ray made this lil speech about how her friends, esp me, should snap if someone disrespects them in her house.. I wasn't tryna be the asshole jic she was everyone's bff or w/e, but Big James called me upstairs and basically said the same thing.. That I've never disrespected him etc, so it would've been fine b/c it's not like it's something I do on routine. That's the first time in a LONG ASS TIME where I've let something go like that..

[Nov 12th]

A day later, I GIGANTIC "I TOLD YOU SO" goes out to like, 564576 people. Mainly Lauren and Becca. Alllllll I'm sayin' tho...

Apparently, it's my destiny to be the filler until people get a boyfriend.. Funny how that works.. How about I fill your insides w/ bullets and we call it a day???

I never finished the story above b/c I woke up and randomly started to blog, but so much has already happened in that day span that it doesn't even matter now. I've got a whole new fish to fry...

Let's try this thought on for size - When I look you dead in the eye, or w/e circumstance it may be, something that I know and feel 100% to be true, I am FUCKING RIGHT... Can we say it allllllllllllllll together now!?!? Just 24 hrs ago, I had someone tell me what they felt in which, @ that time, they tried to convince me w/ many many words that I was dead wrong, etc.. Following day, we have ME telling YOU exactly how YOU feel before you even deal w/ internally. Why??? B/c I was sure, and I was C-O-R-R-E-C-T. INSANE, how often this has happened recently... EVERYTHING.. How many times THIS WEEK ALONE have I said "I'm not talking just to talk.. I'm saying this b/c I know in my heart and in my mind that I'm right, so you can just talk to me when YOU realize it." or something to that effect.. How many!?!?!

PLENTY. I can't wait to YET AGAIN feel the burn and the cold once your shoulder is turned to me. It happened w/ Lauren (I WAS RIGHT I WAS RIGHT I WAS RIGHT I WAS RIGHT I WAS RIGHT I WAS RIGHT I WAS RIGHT), and it's going to happen again. Maybe not NOW, b/c of how I constantly remind you of it, which means you'll just put a little effort into until I've got my back turned, then POOF!

So now that I'm left w/ no one to turn to in all of this madness............

I will confess that I'm almost ready to kill one of you. And I even blurted out HOW @ the mall today.. Oh, yessssssss...

KJLSFLKSFHLSDKFJISDKFHSDF I'M SOOOOOOOO FRUSTRATED, OMFG.. WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY...

W H Y!?!?

It's ok.. I got a new bag of tricks for ya'll..

A change will do me good....