Thursday, September 27, 2007

Def watching Serial Mom right now...

Might change my sn to Cereal Mom, lol. I LOVE this movie to DEATH. John Waters is so awesome. This, Cry Baby, Ed Wood, Hairspray, etc etc... I want to be a camp-happy gay director w/ a very peculiar thin stache!

I also want to be the person to give these 3 kids their first punch in the face, but that's neither here nor there. They're home from school now, and I'm most def holding to my 'No Fun' plan for the day. Fuck w/ me.

I wish I could knee-cap these red retards.

Hm what did I really come here foooooooooooooohhh, yeah..

SO, the other day.. WOW. Morgan, what a night we had?? CRAZY. It's official. The world is full of shit, and that shit loves to rain down upon us. I can barely remember wtf we were doing the other day, but I know we had an awesome time.

OH! LV came home and we bounced, per usual. We went exploring and decided that we were gonna eat @ Andy's, this awesome lil diner next to the Wal-Mart. BOMB ass cheesesteaks, btw. Def a must-try.

We eat there, and mingle w/ the local folk. Apparently there really is nothing to do out there. Funny, b/c I found a few things.. LIIIIIIIKE a bar that has karaoke/comedy shows! I can't imagine how corny the comedy is, so I'll have to see it myself to be sure. Maybe I'll get up there and do some stand-up. Last weekend, Jamie (as in roommate of Jesse/asshole extraordinaire) told me that I should try stand-up. I'm almost sick of hearing it, b/c everytime I do, I consider it more and more. But @ the same tiiiiiime, could I? I mean, don't get me wrong. In the most humble way possible, I will say that I def have confidence in my "material", but I don't know.. It would mean I had to commit to something. There's a million things I "should try" that I would succeed @, I just haven't done it. I should be the "IT" rennaisance bitch right now, w/ all the things I love to do, buuuuuuuut....

The clock is ticking, which is a major motivation. Things I wanted to accomplish before I turned 22/23 are now nearing completion so I guess I'm making SOME kind of progress. TJ's constant reminder that I CAN do it helps.

I AM gonna write a book, and I AM gonna finish this screenplay. Just need a lil help w/ that one, I think it might be a little too out there. Needs something to smooth it out, altho I can't imagine wtf it could be. Actually, NO, I don't need help w/ that b/c I just remembered a revised idea that will round it out perfectly.

Ahem, I got this.



PS, still LOVE this song. Eventually I'll change my name to the line I ♥ the most (that will fit lol).

PPS, def forgot the rest of the story from the night.. After dinner, we went to Wally World, and then to VA to 3 other ones, lol. She was looking for a pair of Halloween undies, and none of them had them in her specific size. One above, one below. Never the actual size. How lame. Of course, this quest just haaaaaad to lead us to the Nimmo W-M, and on the way back, we deeeeefffff got pulled over on Dam Neck. Sooooooo gay. The cop was cool tho, b/c even tho she apparently had a suspended license, he let us go after saying we were just gonna drive to Derby Run etc.. Which we did, and waited like 30 mins before we left. Right outside of Brent's, even lol. I left him a Big B sticker on the GTI, calmed myself down from that whole ordeal, and then eventually we peeled out and made it safely back to NC.

Hey, @ least we know we're not wanted. He def ran both of our IDs. I gave him mine as I'm moving paraphernalia into my bossom lmmfao. LOVE cops. Always. ♥

Ssssssssiiiiiiiiiiiiiikkkkkkeeeeee.

Oh, FUCK. [@ least I had visitors]

JESUS GODDAMN CHRIST, WHYYY IS IT SO HARD FOR EVERYONE, MADISON EXCLUDED, TO JUST LISTEN TO WTF I AM SAYING!?!? LV, REALLY.. REEEEEALLY..

I'm not throwing these suggestions out for nothing. I'm not breathing down these kids' necks for NOTHING.. THEY NEED DISCIPLINE. IMMEDIATELY.

*Tinkerbell (dog) whimpering/running around the kitchen @ 7am*

"BRINA, take the dog out."

"She's doing her homework."

"WHICH HAS NOTHING TO DO W/ THE DOG NEEDING TO GO OUT BUT OK."

Me to LV, via Sabrina.. A mere 30 mins later..

*All of them in the kitchen, me on couch*

"What's that smell?"

"I don't know, Brina, who knows.."

"Oh, dog poo!!"

REALLY, IS THAT WHAT IT IS??? THE MOMENT I WAS TRYING TO AVOID??? K JUST CHECKING..

SO THENNNNN I tell them all that if they're throwing it in the trash can, it DEF needs to go out when they leave for work/school.

ASK ME WHERE THAT BAG IS.. GO AHEAD.. DON'T KNOW? GIVE UP?

IT'S STILL IN THE FUCKING KITCHEN, ON TOOOOOOOOP OF AN OVERFLOWING TRASH BAG. I fucking DARE these bastards to try and do something fun today before this EN-TIRE HOUSE is cleaned. I'm fucking OVER IT. Homework will be second, I DGAF if they fail the entire year b/c of today, this shit will end TODAY.

STOP LETTING YOUR KIDS WALK ALL OVER YOU, JACKASS. That shit don't fly w/ me, but they're in fucking SAFE MODE when mommy walks thru the door.

AND BRANDI, I WAS RIGHT! She WAS @ Wal-Mart when we were waiting for her to get here, but I didn't find out until she sent Amber to the car THIS MORNING to get my cranberry juice and their apple juice out of the car. WTF was she waiting for??? Why would you leave it in the car. WHY? WWWHHHYYY??? I swear, if Brandi and Travis weren't there to save me last night.. WOOOOO..

THANK YOU, THANK YOU to them.. You're off the hook now.. I really appreciate the visit! We drove thru most of town, relieving my stress and geekin' the fuck out. Went to this weird ass 4-way walk thing on the water.. HOOOOOW MANY FUCKING SPIDERS DID WE ENCOUNTER, OMFG.. FIRST we were in the one dark side, chillin' and scaring ourselves, but when we ventured to the other sides, OH SHIT NIGGA... Travis walked DEAD into

[WHOOOOAAAAA, BABWA WALTERS JUST SAID "HOOD OF THE CLITORIS", SOMEHOW THAT SEEMS SO WEIRD]

the one where you could see like 43 spiders off top.. I almost walked into the area but Brandi was like, YOOOOU HAVE FUN W/ THAT, LOOK @ THEM SPIDERS, LMMMFAO.. We tried to go to the one remaining area BUUUUUT there were even more spiders there, so we just said FUCK IT, and went back across that rickety ass bullshit w/ no sides and murky ass water all around it. Some straight Camp Crystal Lake-type shit..

Oh, and before all that, we went to Wal-Mart. Ask Brandi and T-Rav how much better that shit is in comparison to VA.. Fuck VA, NC Wal-Mart ALL DAY, BITCHES! LOL

GOD last night was soooo fun.. We even drove down that "scary road" Morgan refused to, which turned out to be a driveway @ a big ass house.. Nothing scary.. Altho that shit is prob a slaughterhouse on the sneak tip..

Hm, what else.. I dunno.. I just feel a lot better after that visit.. I passed the fuuuuck out after I got home.. Well, I ate some of my BRACHS CANDY CORN MMMM, THENNNN I went to bed.

Aaaaand there's a comm'l on for the Neptune Festival. Are these NC mafakas gonna drive down to VA???

Prooobably.

Fucking tourists.



Bitch, I'm triiiiilllll...

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

So I come in this morning, and...

I look to the couch and see LV, Amber, and Sabrina all sprawled out.

REALLY??? REEEEEEEAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLYYYYYYYY???????? WAS I SUPPOSED TO SLEEP ON THE FLOOR??? WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR FUCKING ROOMS, THANKS YOU IGNORANT FUCKING CUNTS.

I have already stressed the fact that I will NOT be using that bedroom. I T ' S N O T M I N E T H E R E F O R E I D O N O T F E E L C O M F O R T A B L E.

So whyyyyy would you sleep in the only place I would EVER sleep??? WHY. Someone make this make sense. I was in a state of shock. I sat in a chair in the kitchen and just sat there fuming until I fell asleep. Right there in the kitchen.

THIS BITCH........... GOD.

I msg'd my Ma to tell her what happened, and to say that this bitch ain't THAT dumb.. She msg'd me back when she woke up saying "Get er" LOL.. I should just walk in her room and go the fuck off, but it's OBVIOUSLY not going to mean shit to a fucking idiot so why even bother..

I am @ my wits end.

I don't have enough life in me to re-create the anger, which has never been a problem before. I feel like I've been tapped, straight sucked dry of any want to do anything. Everyone keeps asking me about the blogs, but wtf.. I don't even feel like typing anymore.

This is a problem! Most certainly! Any and all issues will become public here soon. Like on the first. As soon as the dolo hits my hand, we're gonna have a lil chat. Maybe even before then. Cuz it's not like I hate the kids, or her, or this house. I hate ALMOST EVERYTHING about them, but that's not hating them, lol. I just hate the conditions under which all of this is being carried out. Nothing like it should, and it's really annoying. Morgan knows, b/c unlike some of my other friends who swore they'd visit me, she's seen a lot of it first-hand. I don't even want to hear the "But I..." spiels about why CERTAIN PEOPLE haven't, I don't even care. But don't wonder why I don't gaf when I'm in VA.

Just know that I was MOST DEFINITELY in town last night. EARLY. It's the same distance b/t VA and NC for all of us, some even closer than others, so fuck it. If I want to see you, I will. If not, oh fuckin' well, eh??

W/e. That makes me sound more upset than I really am about that, when I def knew that this would be the case once I got out here. Why do something having nothing to do w/ you?? Who does THAT anymore....... :|

"COME SEE ME!"

GO FUCK YOURSELVES, lol.

Love ya, MEAN IT! ♥



No, really. I mean it. It's all ♥. Like I said, not mad, just going over the obvious w/ highlighter.

Another weekend down... [late]

Altho I didn't get to VA until Saturday night.. Buuuuut I had a fuckin' blast that night, and all of Sunday.. I really needed that time in VA to just relax. NOTHING stressful. No crying babies, no BAD kids, etc.. Well, I WAS w/ Laurence and Darrion, but they're not like, BAD bad kids. They're just insane, lol. ♥ tho, I could've cried when Darrion raced home from his friend's house to see me/hug and kiss me.. Laurence and Keyara were already home, and they gave me lots of lovins lol. Awesome. Makes me sad tho, I feel like I missed a good portion of their lives even tho it was just a matter of months. Not even a year. But they all sprouted in that time.

Altho, I prob wouldn't have noticed the spurts had I been around them as much.. Either way, I'm glad I got to play w/ my babies! Talking to Darrion is so weird.. He's so much more adult lol. He told me how sad he was about his female friend who fell down the steps and is now paralyzed, and the OTHER friend that went missing. What in the hellll, man. Kids these days got it rough, lol. It's not a good time to be associated w/ Darrion, damn.. I'm glad we don't have steps, and these kids don't go far ever.

ALSO GLAD that Emily gave me a week's worth of painkillers for my back. Two white, one pink, every night before bed. Didn't do it last night b/c I didn't get in until after 4am, and she said do it when I DON'T have to wake up anytime soon. Awesome. It's ON, tonight.

Aaaaaand as it turned out (started this the other day), I didn't take them again. Another long night. BUT THAT BLOG IS NEXT :|.

Riiiighty-o, so I spend Sunday relaxing and re-couping my brain cells, running aroundn doing errands, and shit like that. Got what I came to VA for nice and early in the day, so I had the rest to chiiillllll... And chill I did!

Ugh. I really think this house is zapping the life out of me. I had so much I wanted to blog about, and now it's like, eh.. W/e.. I really had a blast, too.

Hm Sat night.. OHH.. Jess and I were on stupid-mode and I ended up passing out on the chair, lol. I woke up and invited Lauren to come get breakfast w/ me @ McDs lol. I was gonna walk by myself but I figured she might wanna come over and chill w/ us since none of us had anything to do @ that time.. So we did that, hung out for some more, and then we left so she could talk to her Grandma, and I could go run my errands..

That's how Angel came into play.. ANGEL WHO GOT ME LOCKED IN/OUT OF THE GREENHOUSE @ THE ZOO. See, after the shopping/errands, we went to drop off the snacks there, and she locked the gate b/c there was this really weird dude talking to himself nearby, and we weren't too sure that he wouldn't shank us.. After the gate you walk thru the gardens and into the building, which has a diff key.

We get in there, she does what she does.. Which included an exploding soda, btw. AWESOME. We go take the trash out, and on the way in I remind her that she left the candy bars in her truck and that I'd get them if she gives me the key.. Goes to get her keys, aaaannnnddddd the door is LOCKED. Yes, locked. Just our luck, esp mine.. Thank GOD I had my phone on me, cuz I would've instantly tried to Judo-chop the door down. Fa sho.

She ended up climbing thru her window and I got the last 6 seconds of that on tape lol.. We were trying to wedge open the other doors, but to no avail. Sigh, sigh. What a way to spend Sunday afternoon..

After that we did a bunch of other family-friendly stuff, which included going to the dance studio, and cooking out lol. Yummmmmmmmmyyyyyy...

Aaaaaaaafter THAT, I ended up @ Jessica's again. Nicky was there, but not for that long.. We all kicked it and chatted, I miss the old times, aw.. Then Nicky left, and Morgan came and on my request, we went on a Dylan-hunt lol. He called me and threatened to kick my ass if I didn't find him next time I was in town, and I knew his ass was gonna be @ the block so it only took me 5 mins and one try lol. That happy ass bitch damn near bowled me over.. Love you too, nicca! Damn!

THAT was a fun little time.. There was some flashed tatas, some not-flashed-til-later tatas.. All up in the bar.. Nothing ever changes down there, lol.

Btw, I'm phoning this in. Zero enthusiam right now. Z E R O.

I was so super-stoked about seeing Dylan, but you can't even tell here. THIS FUCKING HOUSE, OMFG.

I NEED TO JUST POST THIS AND BLOG ABOUT THIS MORNING, WHICH DEF SENT ME OVER THE EDGE.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Where is the man...

that can NAIL Jackie Wilson - Lonely Teardrops, one of my fave songs since birth. I wouldn't mind hearing Taylor Hanson.. Aw, how gay am I..... HE wouldn't have to sing it note-for-note, just want to see how it would sound.

Awesome. Def about to be my new song on here, once I get tired of Vanity 6 - Nasty Girl, lol.



PS, there are other clips w/ this song, but I found this random ass video and I'm gonna use it. It's interesting, lol.

I'm SO fuckin' WEAK...



OMFGAAAAAAAAD.. If that were just a convo, it would straaaaaaight up be me and my brothers.. Well, Lu and his boys, but they're like lil bros to me. Crazy insane ones.. That time we were bakin' Jason from 11pm to 5 am.. Mostly just me and Donte.. THAAAAT shit was hilarious..

Seriously tho, I lost my shit when I first heard this..

TRIIIIIIIIFE. SHOOT ME, PLEASE. OR CLEAN MY SOUL.

THIIIIIIS BITCH JUST DUG ALLLLLLL IN HER BUTTHOLE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME LMMMMMMMMMMMFAO OMFG I HAVE GOT TO GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE. STAT.

WEEEEEEAAAAAKKKKKKK B/C THAT WAS SERIOUSLY DISGUSTING. OMFG.

WOOOOOOOW.

*PROJECTILE VOMITING*

OMFG I CAN'T.. THERE'S A VIDEO ON YOUTUBE OF DANIEL JOHNS (SILVERCHAIR) IN DC ON MY BDAY.. YANNO, THE SHOW I DIDN'T GET TO GO TO........

AW, LOOK @ ME... NOT THERE... YAAAAAAAY! :|

I'M GLAAAAAD THE VIDEO HAS NO EMBEDDING. I MIGHT KILL MYSELF IF I HAD TO SHARE IT..







I ♥ INSOMNIA...

"I STAY AWAKE FOR DAAAAAAAAAYS... I STAY AWAKE FOR DAAAAAAAAYS.. BUT I'D SIT AWAKE IN A DAAAZE ANYWAY, I'M A MAAAZE OF CHAAAAAAAINS..."