"I never thought you'd be a junkie... [!!!!]

because heroin is so passe...."

One year down, a lifetime of VOMITING PROFUSELY @ THE MERE MENTION OF HIM TO GO. :|

I don't even know what I want to say. I've pretty much said all that I can say about the situation. So many random things lately have revolved around Brad, but I've ignored the majority of it.

This is some 'ol bullshit!

This time last year, you were alive and "well", prob not even awake if you think about the time zones..

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I seriously don't know wtf I wanted to say.......... I thought about this a lot, pretty much every day since Jan 16 last year. What I was gonna write today....

And now I don't know! I blogged about it so much, everyone knows already. Yes, the obsession is still there, however since Jan started it's been a lot easier to look @ pics etc, or watch movies. I think watching 'Tom and Huck' @ Reva's like 2 weeks ago is what changed it. How random is that?? But as soon as they showed him, I felt this warmth and it was like..... Ok... It's cool. I got this. Ever since then, it's been normal. Obv still mournful but not in the same way. It's more of a peaceful thought.

Dooooooon't get it twisted tho, I could watch 'The Client' today and immediately want to hang myself in Stevo's bathroom. Who knows? Should I even tempt fate?? Nah. I have so many things in my life to get straight, I can't be bothered w/ thoughts like that, esp when I know I don't want to die.

It just would've been nice for him to live, that's all............



My favourite thing about that picture (aside from the EXTREME hotness) is the fact that I'm known for the Bundy. I'm surprised there aren't like 435834756 pics of me w/ my hand down my pants, cuz I def sit like that aaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllll the time. ALL. Prob my fave thing to do, sit w/ my hand(s) down my pants, haha. Sounds AWESOME, I know. But still, aw. Sniff, sniff..

WHYYYYYYYYYY WHY WHY, EVERYTHING I WROTE ABOVE IS DENIAL WRAPPED IN BACON, TASTES SOOOOOOO GOOD, YET SOOOO UNHEALTHY. I can't BELIEVE it's not butter.

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Fyi, I was OBSESSED w/ this when it first came out. I was like, 14?? Something like that. Either way, the first time I heard about Brad being arrested on drug charges (yayo, btw), this is what I downloaded on Napster.

Daaaaamn, homie.

RIP Brad Barron Renfro July 25 1982 - Jan 15 2008.