See, the thing is.... [LRW ♥ JTL]

I want to finish/post that blog, but I don't think it'll be enough.

For some reason, the hardest thing I've tried to do in recent times OTHER than become a stable person, is to convince you that YOU are a stable, fully functioning and wanted-on-this-earth human being.

I've heard so many people compliment you on so many things in the tenure of our friendship, and that is not enough. It's obvious to see that it's never gonna be enough. I mean, it's 2009 and you still don't know your self-worth?? How can that be?? That's RIDICULOUS... I go thru this w/ Morgan allll the time.

Not happy? Fake it 'til you make it, babycakes... Do you feel like shit today?? That's just more of a reason to do that stiff neck thing we talked about @ dinner last night lol. I hope you realize that you sound retarded *no Corky* when you down yourself. No one looking from the outside in is EVER going to be able to accept your flaws as fact. Like I said, on the SURFACE, you seem to be the most put together and stable person in the entiiiiiiiire group!!

Yes, life is SHIIIIITTYYYYYY, ESP humanity in itself. But even me w/ my never-ending story, I walk around like I JUST got done reading a text from Jesus telling me that I "fucking rock", so yoooooou should DEF be doing the same. People made you feel like shit?? Meeeee too. Poor growing up? MEEEEEEEEEE TOOOOOOOOO. Hello, Willoughby Navy brat here! We were ALL poor.

If someone doesn't like you, dude, they obviously don't know you. I watched you pour yourself and your bank account into a group of friends comprised mostly of devils in disguise, b/c it was the nice thing to do, and you wanted people to be happy and like you....

FOR WHAT???

Like..... Can we do stat comparisons?? Do I have to go on ESPN to make this make sense?? You def come out as the better person. As in more from the heart, not like a snooty cunt.

I need the power to brainwash. I think I possess it slightly, but not to the effect that I'm talking about. I would have you whipped into shape in NO time. Are any of your ex's doing better w/o you?? No?? K, well fuck'em. Esp the one we ran into @ the mall the other day, lmmmmmfao. How AWESOME was that....

BUT I DIGRESS.........

To be loved is WONDERFUL, but to love YOURSELF is eeeeven better, and I don't think you do. I mean, you do in the sense that you don't load yourself up w/ drugs & alcohol like the rest of the populus, but that's in a diff context. That's just life preservation. I'm sorry that whoever hurt you was able to have such a lasting effect, but damn woman... Holding on to shit like that is part of the reason why my family life is sooooooo strained, and I CANNOT let it go. It hasn't gotten me ANY further in my life, just literal chapters in the book of life.

You're much too young to feel this damn old, and to be feeling so sorry for yourself. No one wants to make you happy?? Do it your damn self! And don't say you do, b/c this wouldn't be in progress if you did. Yes, you do small things to please yourself, like buying your dope-ass rich lady bags, etc.. But those are just fillers.

The ball is in YOUR court. The world is waiting on YOU, so wtf!!! I CRIED talking to you yesterday, like are you serious? And yet you constantly question your importance in my life.. JUST STOP! Stop and staaaaaaaare if you have to, lol. Stare @ yourself long enough to see what we see. Stop waiting for a man to make you feel pretty. Self-pity is U-G-L-Y, and you damn sure ain't got NO alibi... Where were you on the night you realized you were beautiful, ma'am??

Oh, wait. Like some Y2k shit, to you it's a myth that has yet to be proven.

RETARD! LMMFAO. I mean that in the best way, I hope you know that. And I mean THAT in the best way, not the sarcastic shit I'm usually on. I know how you love to read waaaaaay too much into shit.

In the past what, almost a month now?? We have been together pretty much every damn day, and w/ each day that passes I just want to do more and more for myself. If we could just mesh for a day, that would be FAAANTASTIC. I told you, man... You def do inspire me. W/ every dinner date, and there's been PLEEEEEEEEENTY, w/ every random night sitting @ Brent's.. I'm just looking from the outside in and that is what I want, from what I can see. You've got so much going for you, so wtf. I wish I could say that. I WANT to say that.

I WILL say that, just not today, tomorrow, next week, or next year.. Hopefully that's wrong, but it's a 311 lyric so I just ran w/ it, haha. So is my current s/n on here, btw.

You're stronger than you think. I mean, you went thru all the things that are beating you over the head, and your motherfuckin' ass (which is looooovely, fyi) is still alive soooooo... What's gooooooood, dun-dun!?! Haha..

I thought you were rap's MVP?? Get your swag on, bitch!



You just gotta keep on tryyyyyyyin, til you reeeeaaaach the highest grooouuuuund...

Or just get high, fuck!

You = pure genius/complete lunatic, and that's why you're so rad.. You're truly, truly, TRULY outrageous.