This kind of repeated heartache can't be healthy.

I would just LOVE IT if just fucking ONCE, a great outlook could stay that way. Just once! It's never going to end tho, so whooooooo fuckin' cares, right!? No one seems to understand how much it hurts me to keep starting over, b/c as bad as shit may get for them, I def go thru worse ROUTINELY.

There's a pattern. It's good shit/bad shit, and that's the way it's apparently going to flow until I end my the end of my life.

I'm over it.

OVER IT. Fully. 100%.

Do ya get me, sweetheart???



How the fuck do people NOT give up!? This is insane! And to make matters worse, I def feel the final straw coming. I'm just gonna go back to being a fucking recluse. I had everything then.

EVERYTHING.