I feel so much better now.

Actually, I felt better on the way to work, but I just now got the chance to state that. I decided it was a Silverchair day (who knew) and listened to Young Modern on the way to Wal-Mart (pit stop). Ya'll know how Silverchair is like Valium to me.. I felt like a million bucks right up until I got to work and my Ma was there, armed w/ a lil attitude lol. I did too tho, but it was her answer to my ?s that pissed me off.. But I went back like 20 mins later w/ a mean mug that instantly softened b/c of something she said.. And she gave me this neato binder w/ the company name on it. Said that she got it for me b/c I like that kind of stuff..

And I do! Aw, she knows her eldest offspring is a total nerd @ ♥. Not even @ ♥, I just am.

The good feeling didn't last too long, but only kinda.. I WASN'T mad @ anyone, I was just generally feeling a little off. I hadn't had anything to eat or drink since the night before, and I felt all sorts of woozy up until PAST SEVEN when I finally got to eat. I WAS gonna eat earlier but somehow it took like 2-3 hours to activate 3 fuckin' phones. Plus, the kiosks were in a bit of a frenzy b/c my Ma is basically cleaning out the closet.. Too many stolen/missing phones, so she was there getting shit straight. But anyway, I didn't have an attitude, just a really big back/headache.. I didn't want to sit down until I did all of my activations but that just blew up in my face when it took eons.

God bless Loritab or however that shit is spelled. That's my "Get out of pain free" card right thurr... Took two w/ dinner and felt much better. Yay!

So don't fret over me, folks.. Thanks for the msgs, etc.. If you've been texting me, sorry.. My screen's fucked up (Morgan, PLEASE let me know wtf happened lol. I didn't even TOUCH IT!) on my old phone, so I can't see shit. HOWEVER, b/c I know my phone, I can reply to new ones (just to say call me b/c I can't read the reply), and call anyone in my phone book b/c I just have to spell the name I have them under. I'm supposedly getting one here soon, was supposed to on Monday but I have no idea wtf happened w/ that one..

Aaaaaaand I've decided that even tho I want the Wing, I kinda want like two other phones, so I'ma see what my Ma is talkin' about and go from there.. I think I know what she's gonna give me tho, so I'm secretly stoked. Trying not to bug her about it b/c I reeeeeeally need that to happen. Like TOMORROW. After the weekend, I'm not gonna be able to answer the phone all day long b/c I'm not much of a talker on the phone as it is, but it's the only way I know who called me, lol. Not tryna run my minutes into the ground, and get my ass kicked. Which reminds me, on payday I'll be paying my own bill. She better break that shit down PER phone on the account b/c I'm not payin' NOBODY ELSE'S SHIT. And if they go too far over and that shit gets cut, I', buckin' on a ho!

OOOOOHHHHHH, btw! Not ONLY will I have full, kick-ass, go to ANY doc ANY time, ANY amount of times insurance starting Feb 1st, but there's a bank plan thingy where even if you owe a bank money, you can open the account. I deffffff owe Wachovia, which I will start to repay here soon. I'm def signing up for that shit b/c it's basically like a employee package thingy and we can do our direct deposit etc... Check cards.. Which, btw is the reason I owe Wachovia lol. It was their fault, but I just dicked around and let it pass..

Hm.. What else.. OH! Of course, w/ DD I'll get paid earlier.. I want the 16th to come SOOOOOOO bad.. A bitch might go a little nuts. But I doubt it, b/c I already know what I want/need and what I don't want to spend. My vitals are minor things, so I'll prob just get a couple of cheap $5 movies @ Wally World and be done w/ it.. As far as purchases that last long go, anyway lol.

The rest, ah well...

K sooooooo what else was there that I felt like talking about........

OOOOHHHHHHH. I can't tell ya'll that. Well, maybe just a few of you. Even tho my Ma def said it to Regina earlier, which was weird, but ok.... I dgaf.. She really wants me to stick this out if for nothing but the benefits, and I can understand that. I DO need a regular doctor, and I need to have a dentist. I found out that my dolo also goes towards that, so I'm happy. My Ma broke it down for us after having Larry and Felix sign their insurance papers.

Could it be??? I said that by the end of the year, new shit would be poppin' and that I'd be getting my shit together. All I've done this week is work, and it hasn't gotten old yet. It didn't bitd either when I did the same thing, b/c you see and talk to SO many diff people, plus I work w/ some nutcases, one being my nigga Lurrrrrrry, so you know it's a wrap there.

I hope I'm not jinxing myself tho.. I'm sure I'll love it and stick w/ it.. I need to make 3257682% sure that I can go to KMK in PA/MD tho.. It's next weekend, I should def get on the ball w/ that. A lot of changes have been and will BE made here lately, so I should ask NOW before everything is set in concrete. I told my Ma a week or two ago, but she never remembers shit. I told her to stop smokin' weed, lol.

Aaaaaaand on that note, I'm ending this..

God, I feel SOOOO much better! Funny how a fat bitch like me can feel so... weightless...

I had the chorus to Silverchair - Low in my head ALL GODDAMN DAY. Sang it about 435346 times.. But I also had some moments of enlightenment during uhh.. Shit.. OH, it was Straight Lines, first.. The line that says "There's no changing yesterday".. How perfect? Had there been a comp w/ internet (open, anyway) I would've changed my name to that. I think I just might either way, b/c it applies to every day gone by.

ANYWAY, I was leaving.. I got caught up in Office Space, which I'm watching w/ Stevo.. I found this clip that just so HAPPENS to be from my ruined bday show.. Can't hear it b/c there's no sound on this mafaka, but I'm gonna post it anyway.



"Stay and hijack the HUUURT, I feel so loooooooooooow, I feel so HIIIIIIIIIGGGGGHHHH... Take a look inside myyyy miiiiiiiiind..."

Ah, sweet serenity.