Oh I just can't WAIT to be Kween...

Seriously, I'm over it. My phone is off AGAIN, even tho there was money paid this week. I don't know how, but I don't even care, lol. I handle these types of situations well. I had a dream that my phone was fucked up, soo.. Where does THAT rank!!?

But if you put all the shit I've been thru this year on paper, omg.. I just want out! Out of this life, out of this CITY, just out. I don't even know to which extent I mean that, but I know I do @ least a little bit. W/ every new "WTF", I just proclaim that it happens, cuz it does. All I've been saying to my friends lately is "It happens".. Nothing is really as shocking as it seems. Everything is so extraordinarily mundane, nothing makes the sense it's supposed to, and I'm just like, wow. Really??

This isn't depression over the phone, btw. I just fig'd I'd let people know. Don't call me, I'll call you.

However I have GOT to do something to end this cycle. I would love for '09 to be THAT year. It's the year I'm turning 27, and 2 years ago I told Jessica I was going to kill myself on my 27th bday if I was still going thru that shit. So far, the appt stands haha. Wouldn't that suck if I did? Maybe I should do it after my bday, @ midnight and scribble some note about wanting to be w/ Brad Renfro in w/e chamber of hell you're sent to if you die a selfish death. He didn't commit suicide, but I don't know how the "Lord" feels about heroin use.

*sigh, sigh*

I'm sick, I'm covered in Vick's... Today is great!! I woke up sometime after 3am to hurl over and over into the kitchen trash can. Thank god there was a bag!! Yumm yumm gimmie some!

I can't do anything but laugh right now. Is this really the lead-in to a new year?? And I still have PLENTY of time to die tragically/ironically, and so do you so WATCH OUT!! lol

LMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMFAO, IT'S MAD HOURS LATER CUZ I LEFT THE COMP, BUT GUESS FUCKING WHAT HAPPENED AFTER I WROTE ALL THAT!?!?

GUESS!?!?

IF YOUR GUESS WAS THE FACT THAT MY PHONE WAS IN THE WASHING MACHINE, YOU WON YOURSELF A NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BWAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND SUICIDE IS OFFICIALLY AN OPTION.

This year is fucking OVER. And by that, I mean see ya next blog, folks. I can't do this right now.

LMMMFAO.. REALLY!?!? Merry Christmas, everyone.