So, THIS is Christmas??

Hm. I'm fine w/ that.

I made peace w/ my Christmas when I got back last night, so everything is w/e now! I had a HORRIFIC encouter w/ my Ma right after midnight that began w/ me wrapping her sandwich like a gift and then ended w/ me hurling it @ the wall, still wrapped. Along w/ her fucking drink that "I don't even drink, why would you get me that?"...

BIIIIIIIITCH.

Lauren (ha...) will tell you, she saw it happen. I was sooo hurt when she started getting pissy w/ me. Like, really, after all that has gone down this month, YOU have to be the one to put the nail in the coffin LITERALLY as the clock strikes midnight and it's actually Christmas. Leave it to my mother, haha.. I fuckin' love her, but she is OFF. I just want her to be happy, and I don't think she believes me. Oh, well. If I accomplish my goals, she'll see.

Soooooo anyway, def had a good Christmas.. Dino came over in the morning to keep me company cuz he knew I was gonna be alone. He also went w/ me last night to Angel's to wrap presents for the boys and Kiki.. That's my lil dude, man. I wish someone would fuck w/ him!! Thanks for everything, my pint-sized ninja warrior friend haha. Such an oddball.

But yeah, that happens and then Sarup(!) comes to get me so we can spend time together. That's actually where I am now! We hung out for a few hours and then Jessika came thru w/ the ice cream I spoke of earlier. Fuckin' sweeeeeet.

Aaaaaaand then Morgan came to take me to her sister's for din-din (awk-wurrrrrrd lmmmfao NO CLAWS, BITCHES, THAT'S MY JOB!) which really set the ease w/i me.. I feel like I got so much love today, and I've only seen like 6 people. I don't wanna say only b/c there are people a lot lonelier than I was, but yanno that's just a comparitive thing from last year. Is that a word?? Am IIII asking that?? I know it is tho, it feels right so what-ever, lol.

I would like to thank Mariah (Mo's sis) for whipping up such a lovely feast, I def grubbed my assssss off. I even ate her stuffing, which was RIDDLED w/ onions. I picked'em out, obv. She's such a chill person to be around. Correct me if I'm wrong, Mo, cuz you'd know.. But I felt very @ ease over there, and I think that helped a lot w/ my current state of mind. Maybe it was Patrick Swayze?? Morgan and I def watched Dirty Dancing ONDEMAND earlier. I swear, we talked thru the whole thing. Like, still paying attention and listening tho cuz it was mostly about how hardcore we woulda banged Swayze bitd.. I fucking LOVE that movie and it will never get old. Not exactly your traditional Christmas movie, but we're not typical bitches, sooo.. We can flip the script a lil bit and get our swoon on.. It's been decided that we were supposed to be born in like, '74 or something so we could experience the '80s as teens. Def made the argument about how all these "80s babies" are full of shit for the most part..

You see all these things reposted about '80s babies from people born in like, '87-'88 and that DEF does not count. We were born in '82 so we have way more claim to that!! We didn't get those cool toys later on as hand-me-downs, they were our Christmas and birthday presents!! We saw the classics in the theater!! And we def don't need some new trendy movie to stir the Brat Pack in us, it never leaves. I'm emo as fuck on the sneak and all you whiny motherfuckers def have that generation to thank for the misery wonderlands you thrive in.

Whatchu know about ALPHIE, son?? NOTHING, that's what!! Haha..

Anyway Christmas is almost over, only have 15 mins left as it stands.. I would love to say I hope you all got what you wished for, but the selfish lil bitch inside of me really dgaf, sooo... Haha, j/k just glad we're all here to talk about how great/shitty our holiday was. That's what matters @ the end of the day.

My Christmas is ending on a great note b/c I have two cool motherfuckers right behind me and everyone is in a good mood, just chillin.. Jammin' to the new Luda and playing 360, nothing special but it's just us.. All we need!! Sarup has finally slathered her pancakes w/ loooove loooooove loooooove and that's def something I wanted for Xmas!!

Ugh, I feel so blessed and I don't know where all of this is coming from. I'll take it tho. I feel enlightened somehow, but I'll get on that some other time. I just wanna spend time w/ my loved ones. I hope you can say you did the same.

If not, there's always next year..

We hope.