Cuz you make me sooo so sooo so....
Angry.
Intrigued.
Flustered.
You think you're cute..
Ha, well I don't......always.
You're too worried about This & That.
Don't fret.
Don't worry about that. Think about this.
...I've got a workout plan that'll put you on your ass...
♥
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
Because I DO read your blogs,
and I DO get you, unlike STEVO who for SOME god-awful reason has managed to trick you into thinking he's some deep human being beneath the surface, when it all boils down to him being a little kid currently getting everything he wants, and his way to top it all off. I thought you said you were done w/ that when it ended w/ you-know-who?? Apparently he took your sanity w/ him..
I really DGAF how you feel/felt on the phone w/ Lauren, b/c I meant everything I said. I love you to DEATH, which just makes me that more pissed off.
Not upset, b/c friends are allowed/supposed to get upset.. I am PISSED.
I could see if he made up his mind, or ACTUALLY.......
IF THE TWO OF YOU WEREN'T LIVING IN YOUR OWN SEP BUT EQUALLY AS ANNOYING DENIAL, I'D BE FINE...
He can't find the time in his busy day to tell you that he doesn't want anything, and YOU can't get off w/e pretentious thought process that fuels your dreams about him "really being smarter than people give him credit for" b/c THAT shit is a pipe dream.. Like crack pipe, not even a bowl. He's a SIMPLETON, THE SAME KIND OF HUMAN BEING THAT ANNOYS ME TO NO EEEENNNNNNDDDDDDD WHEN PEOPLE START SPOUTING OFF ABOUT THEM BEING SMART/DEEP ON W/E LEVEL THAT WE MORONS JUST DON'T GET, I GUESS...
Do you know what a superficial person is? You should, hm? It's someone only worth getting to know on the surface, b/c everything underneath is a bunch of bullshit. I love that boy to death, enough to where this convo can take place on some bullshit ass blog, or in person.
"He GETS me!"
Shit, OKAAAAAAY.. He GETS the fact that he can get over on you, and that's about it. If he got you, he'd understand that his game really isn't fun for you, if he GOT you, there would be no confusion about who he wants in the bed permanently.
If he GOT you, he'd see all there is to see, and not just what he's been told and thus agreed w/.. No offense to him, but he doesn't deserve to have you running around like this, all flustered and upset. What the fuck are you looking for, and why!?! This whole thing, IIIIIIINSTANT REGRET on my part. And I'ma end up knockin' his goofy ass teeth out for saying that it was "Lisa and my sister" running back and forth saying this and that.. REALLY, NIGGA?!? HAVEN'T SAID SHIT, I DIDN'T CALL HER AND HAVE AN HOUR AND A HALF CONVO, M'KAY!?
ESIHGTLOJDSGHLOUDHGO;IJGP;RHEJLGREJG
THIS IS WHAT'S PISSING ME OFF EVEN MORE... HE WILL ACT LIKE HE COULD GAF LESS UNTIL YOU'RE THERE/ON THE PHONE THEN HE'S DUMBFOUNDED..
CALL ME FUCKIN' SMARTFOUNDED THEN, B/C I SEE RIIIIIIGHT THRU THIS HAVE YOUR CAKE AND EAT IT TOO BULLSHIT GAME YOU GOT GOIN' ON HERE.....
You've got the girl you barely know that gave it up AWFULLY quick, vs. the Donna Reed/Molly Maid that could make Thanksgiving dinner all by herself and clean it before you put down your fork.. Hm, what will I do?? Oh, I know.. Sleep w/ one and get EVERYTHING ELSE I'M LOOKING FOR IN THE OTHER........
WHYYYYYYY DO ALL MY FRIENDS THAT BITCH ABOUT GETTING THE SHORT END ALWAYS GET PISSED OFF AAAAAFFFFFFTTTTTTTEEEEEERRRRRRRR KNOWINGLY SETTLE FOR LESS!?!?
FUCK ALL OF YOU STUPID BITCHES, OMFG.. IT'S UP TO YOU AND ONLY YOU TO MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY IN THIS FUCKED UP WORLD, DON'T COME TO OR BLAME IT ON ME WHEN IT ALL GOES AWRY..
I JUST GOT EVEN MORE MAD.. AND I'M WATCHING BEAUTY AND THE BEAST... WHO'S MAD DURING THIS!?!?!?
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUFGWEYT76Y9T84HYNWEROF093J4U2TUB4RWET7UWTF3I8WHUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK...
*panting*
*wiping sweat beads*
My DEAR Morganza, I know this thing started out w/ good intentions... I don't want you to go home, esp not alone.. But if it's this or that?? Peace the fuck out. I thought I had a friend, not a NOT-EVEN-EX of one of my boys that I see every now and then, and only having to do w/ him..
Oh, and as a PS... LEEEEEET that have been me and not Tara when she came back in.. I ♥ how that was A-Okay w/ you, but if it were the aforementioned you-know-who, you'd have LAAAAAAWST it..
AHEM....
And don't put that on him.. Why WOULD he say no?? Simply put, would you want it to be the other way around?? We can work that out, I make magic happen..
I really DGAF how you feel/felt on the phone w/ Lauren, b/c I meant everything I said. I love you to DEATH, which just makes me that more pissed off.
Not upset, b/c friends are allowed/supposed to get upset.. I am PISSED.
I could see if he made up his mind, or ACTUALLY.......
IF THE TWO OF YOU WEREN'T LIVING IN YOUR OWN SEP BUT EQUALLY AS ANNOYING DENIAL, I'D BE FINE...
He can't find the time in his busy day to tell you that he doesn't want anything, and YOU can't get off w/e pretentious thought process that fuels your dreams about him "really being smarter than people give him credit for" b/c THAT shit is a pipe dream.. Like crack pipe, not even a bowl. He's a SIMPLETON, THE SAME KIND OF HUMAN BEING THAT ANNOYS ME TO NO EEEENNNNNNDDDDDDD WHEN PEOPLE START SPOUTING OFF ABOUT THEM BEING SMART/DEEP ON W/E LEVEL THAT WE MORONS JUST DON'T GET, I GUESS...
Do you know what a superficial person is? You should, hm? It's someone only worth getting to know on the surface, b/c everything underneath is a bunch of bullshit. I love that boy to death, enough to where this convo can take place on some bullshit ass blog, or in person.
"He GETS me!"
Shit, OKAAAAAAY.. He GETS the fact that he can get over on you, and that's about it. If he got you, he'd understand that his game really isn't fun for you, if he GOT you, there would be no confusion about who he wants in the bed permanently.
If he GOT you, he'd see all there is to see, and not just what he's been told and thus agreed w/.. No offense to him, but he doesn't deserve to have you running around like this, all flustered and upset. What the fuck are you looking for, and why!?! This whole thing, IIIIIIINSTANT REGRET on my part. And I'ma end up knockin' his goofy ass teeth out for saying that it was "Lisa and my sister" running back and forth saying this and that.. REALLY, NIGGA?!? HAVEN'T SAID SHIT, I DIDN'T CALL HER AND HAVE AN HOUR AND A HALF CONVO, M'KAY!?
ESIHGTLOJDSGHLOUDHGO;IJGP;RHEJLGREJG
THIS IS WHAT'S PISSING ME OFF EVEN MORE... HE WILL ACT LIKE HE COULD GAF LESS UNTIL YOU'RE THERE/ON THE PHONE THEN HE'S DUMBFOUNDED..
CALL ME FUCKIN' SMARTFOUNDED THEN, B/C I SEE RIIIIIIGHT THRU THIS HAVE YOUR CAKE AND EAT IT TOO BULLSHIT GAME YOU GOT GOIN' ON HERE.....
You've got the girl you barely know that gave it up AWFULLY quick, vs. the Donna Reed/Molly Maid that could make Thanksgiving dinner all by herself and clean it before you put down your fork.. Hm, what will I do?? Oh, I know.. Sleep w/ one and get EVERYTHING ELSE I'M LOOKING FOR IN THE OTHER........
WHYYYYYYY DO ALL MY FRIENDS THAT BITCH ABOUT GETTING THE SHORT END ALWAYS GET PISSED OFF AAAAAFFFFFFTTTTTTTEEEEEERRRRRRRR KNOWINGLY SETTLE FOR LESS!?!?
FUCK ALL OF YOU STUPID BITCHES, OMFG.. IT'S UP TO YOU AND ONLY YOU TO MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY IN THIS FUCKED UP WORLD, DON'T COME TO OR BLAME IT ON ME WHEN IT ALL GOES AWRY..
I JUST GOT EVEN MORE MAD.. AND I'M WATCHING BEAUTY AND THE BEAST... WHO'S MAD DURING THIS!?!?!?
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUFGWEYT76Y9T84HYNWEROF093J4U2TUB4RWET7UWTF3I8WHUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK...
*panting*
*wiping sweat beads*
My DEAR Morganza, I know this thing started out w/ good intentions... I don't want you to go home, esp not alone.. But if it's this or that?? Peace the fuck out. I thought I had a friend, not a NOT-EVEN-EX of one of my boys that I see every now and then, and only having to do w/ him..
Oh, and as a PS... LEEEEEET that have been me and not Tara when she came back in.. I ♥ how that was A-Okay w/ you, but if it were the aforementioned you-know-who, you'd have LAAAAAAWST it..
AHEM....
And don't put that on him.. Why WOULD he say no?? Simply put, would you want it to be the other way around?? We can work that out, I make magic happen..
Thursday, January 24, 2008
"I noticed that you still listen to Hansen.
That makes me smile. Also judging by your title your love for Brad Renfro never died either."
:|
Mmm....
:|
Mmm....
I can't help but feel like I'm trading
one bad moment for good.. I had such a shitty day until Lauren picked me up around 9:15pm last night.. Seriously.. Shity enough to where I'm not blogging about it, it's going straight into the book. I realize that most of my fave blogs could be paragraphs in chapters, so I'm trying not to blog as much and make it count. Of course, it's killing me, but I'll get over it when I'm in a dope-ass house on the beach!! LOL.. WIshful thinking, but hey, IF BRAD AND HEATH CAN GO IN A WEEK, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE :|
Liiiiiiike the fact that one of my FAVOURITE Silverchair songs is apparently re-appearing on the US charts!! Shibby! I ♥ The Greatest View, omfg.. I've played it for Morgan (she dl'd some Chair to her iPod for me, gush gush!) a few times and I know she digs it.. I'm so stoked, haha. This is what was posted today...
Silverchair's resurgence in the U.S continues with radio across the country adding "The Greatest View" to rotation. This week the song entered the U.S airplay charts in the Top 40. In the wake of "Straight Lines" strong U.S. showing it seems many in the media are seizing the chance to revisit this song.
"The Greatest View" EP is currently available in the U.S with the track listing as follows:
1. The Greatest View (Originally from "Diorama")
2. Straight Lines {The Presets Remix}
3. We're Not Lonely...BUT We Miss You (B-Side)
4. Barbarella (B-Side)
5. If You Keep Losing Sleep VIDEO
6. The Greatest View - Live From Carriageworks, Sydney VIDEO
Juuuuuust how excited am I?? I feel like I'm taking losses as the good shit reels itself in, b/c there's Kingspade on the 4th, some TECH AND PAUL WALL TOUR W/ LIKE 45 MORE DATES BEING RELEASED HERE SOON, maaaaad random shit I can't talk about yet, one thing involving Tony motherfuckin' Hawk, and theeeennnnnn.....
I got a friend request from a kiwi... Oh no wait, FROM KIWI!!!!!
Holy HELL, Tori how the FUCK... I'm so happy right now, omg.. This girl, Tori, from waaaaaaaaaay back in the day (ten years, wow) found me via Hilarie's page.. Both of them were my bitches when we all lived in Willoughby.. Tori lived on my row, just 2 houses down. I remember when we stole her stepdad's weed and got high in the park.. 'Member that?? Them tight-ass black jeans you had on that made your ass hang out?? Haha wow, this is nuts.. I was in Willoughby the other day w/ Morgan, and I took her to the rocks by the rec center, and we're def gonna climb across them..
I COULDN'T SEE PRIDE ROCK, BTW... May've been the dark sky or all the brush, I doubt they'd remove ONE fucking rock, altho they have changed a lot. Not the rocks tho..
Oh, man.. So many signs that I need to get my shit straight, keep myself going strong b/c I DEF would be the one w/ unfinished business.. I got into a nice argument, a nice COUPLE of arguments w/ my Ma about the book and everything else. Stabilty. Her being an asshole.... Which I can't believe I said and made it out alive, btw.. Oh, well, I had to stand my ground. She's an unrealistic cunt just like my sister..
Gotta love family!
They won't once the book is done, however.
Shine a light on MEEEEEE...
Oh, and there's pics of Tori hanging out w/ RICKEY on her page.. RICKEY... Haha, what up, dude?? "Taz" lol..
*shakes head*
I can't even describe the free-flow of teenage memories going thru my head right now..
Soooooo, I'm gonna finish up some other writing I was doing, blogs included, and then.. I dunno..
I'm gonna revise my exit strategy...
PS just remembered that the other day I def heard Silverchair - The Greatest View on Sirius radio, just had to throw that out there. Def was stoked, def made Larry turn it up...
PPS aaaaalso remembered the book Tori made for me bitd.. It was made to look like a Hershey wrapper, b/c that was my n/n back then.. It was about me being a great best friend etc etc.. AWWWWW.. I'm gonna hate to have to tell her that it was in my storage shed.. I never would've gotten rid of it otherwise. GODDAMN...
*GASP*
I wonder if she has any old pictures...........!
PPPS it never bugged me until recently that my Photobucket account name ISN'T BeevoNerd.
Iiiii just might be re-saving all 4856547467 pics.. Orrrr I can just make a BN folder, but it's so not the same. I'm BN EVERYWHERE.
Ah, well....
Such is life!
Liiiiiiike the fact that one of my FAVOURITE Silverchair songs is apparently re-appearing on the US charts!! Shibby! I ♥ The Greatest View, omfg.. I've played it for Morgan (she dl'd some Chair to her iPod for me, gush gush!) a few times and I know she digs it.. I'm so stoked, haha. This is what was posted today...
Silverchair's resurgence in the U.S continues with radio across the country adding "The Greatest View" to rotation. This week the song entered the U.S airplay charts in the Top 40. In the wake of "Straight Lines" strong U.S. showing it seems many in the media are seizing the chance to revisit this song.
"The Greatest View" EP is currently available in the U.S with the track listing as follows:
1. The Greatest View (Originally from "Diorama")
2. Straight Lines {The Presets Remix}
3. We're Not Lonely...BUT We Miss You (B-Side)
4. Barbarella (B-Side)
5. If You Keep Losing Sleep VIDEO
6. The Greatest View - Live From Carriageworks, Sydney VIDEO
Juuuuuust how excited am I?? I feel like I'm taking losses as the good shit reels itself in, b/c there's Kingspade on the 4th, some TECH AND PAUL WALL TOUR W/ LIKE 45 MORE DATES BEING RELEASED HERE SOON, maaaaad random shit I can't talk about yet, one thing involving Tony motherfuckin' Hawk, and theeeennnnnn.....
I got a friend request from a kiwi... Oh no wait, FROM KIWI!!!!!
Holy HELL, Tori how the FUCK... I'm so happy right now, omg.. This girl, Tori, from waaaaaaaaaay back in the day (ten years, wow) found me via Hilarie's page.. Both of them were my bitches when we all lived in Willoughby.. Tori lived on my row, just 2 houses down. I remember when we stole her stepdad's weed and got high in the park.. 'Member that?? Them tight-ass black jeans you had on that made your ass hang out?? Haha wow, this is nuts.. I was in Willoughby the other day w/ Morgan, and I took her to the rocks by the rec center, and we're def gonna climb across them..
I COULDN'T SEE PRIDE ROCK, BTW... May've been the dark sky or all the brush, I doubt they'd remove ONE fucking rock, altho they have changed a lot. Not the rocks tho..
Oh, man.. So many signs that I need to get my shit straight, keep myself going strong b/c I DEF would be the one w/ unfinished business.. I got into a nice argument, a nice COUPLE of arguments w/ my Ma about the book and everything else. Stabilty. Her being an asshole.... Which I can't believe I said and made it out alive, btw.. Oh, well, I had to stand my ground. She's an unrealistic cunt just like my sister..
Gotta love family!
They won't once the book is done, however.
Shine a light on MEEEEEE...
Oh, and there's pics of Tori hanging out w/ RICKEY on her page.. RICKEY... Haha, what up, dude?? "Taz" lol..
*shakes head*
I can't even describe the free-flow of teenage memories going thru my head right now..
Soooooo, I'm gonna finish up some other writing I was doing, blogs included, and then.. I dunno..
I'm gonna revise my exit strategy...
PS just remembered that the other day I def heard Silverchair - The Greatest View on Sirius radio, just had to throw that out there. Def was stoked, def made Larry turn it up...
PPS aaaaalso remembered the book Tori made for me bitd.. It was made to look like a Hershey wrapper, b/c that was my n/n back then.. It was about me being a great best friend etc etc.. AWWWWW.. I'm gonna hate to have to tell her that it was in my storage shed.. I never would've gotten rid of it otherwise. GODDAMN...
*GASP*
I wonder if she has any old pictures...........!
PPPS it never bugged me until recently that my Photobucket account name ISN'T BeevoNerd.
Iiiii just might be re-saving all 4856547467 pics.. Orrrr I can just make a BN folder, but it's so not the same. I'm BN EVERYWHERE.
Ah, well....
Such is life!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
And YOU...
YOU need to stop defending him just b/c it's him. You sound like just as much of a retard as he does, I hope you know that.
He's a selfish little kid who whines about EVERYTHING, but you are somehow blind to that even tho we can see cleeeeeearly now, the raaaaaain is goooone...
It's not cute, it's actually making me think a little diff of you..
Maybe it WASN'T ___. You are doing it again, just like SHE did it w/ Tim.. Funny how these females exhibit past behaviour w/ the new ones, and think we don't notice..
Ain't that right, L BEEEEZY!? CHUUUUUUUUUUCH...!
BLIIIIIIINDED BYYYY THE LIIIIGHT...
I'd love to tell you who I'm NOT talking about, but that would make you feel better and I don't want that.
He's a selfish little kid who whines about EVERYTHING, but you are somehow blind to that even tho we can see cleeeeeearly now, the raaaaaain is goooone...
It's not cute, it's actually making me think a little diff of you..
Maybe it WASN'T ___. You are doing it again, just like SHE did it w/ Tim.. Funny how these females exhibit past behaviour w/ the new ones, and think we don't notice..
Ain't that right, L BEEEEZY!? CHUUUUUUUUUUCH...!
BLIIIIIIINDED BYYYY THE LIIIIGHT...
I'd love to tell you who I'm NOT talking about, but that would make you feel better and I don't want that.
Gayelle...!? And what's w/ 'Celebrity Saw'??
First, the love of my life, and then the love of a coupla moments!?!? In a WEEK?! Shuuuuuuut the FUCK up...
Raise your hand if you're currently questioning your own mortality....!?
No one saw THAT shit coming, bull rocks if you say you did... Uggghhh.. Heath?? But... How RUDE!
Hm, I have a chapter about my elm school and my death, maybe I need to get to clickin' a lil quicker, hm? Morgan and I are going on a lil date to Willoughby Elm.. I plan on filming some shit to show my family..
Who's next!? What if a member of 'N Sync or Backstreet goes?? I know, that's gay as hell to think about, or "gayelle" and that's some real shit. I would fucking DIE A THOUSAND DEATHS, NOOOOOO MATTER WHICH OF EITHER GROUP. TRUE FUCKIN' STORY...
I'm 'bout over this 'Celebrity Saw' that life feels like playing.. I don't even want to know who's next (lyyyyyying, but it's horrible)..
Don't let it be Mark or Ryan boyyyyyy... Out of pure vanity alone..
Basically, stay away from TUS (the usual suspects).. Jen, I know you feel me on that one...
Raise your hand if you're currently questioning your own mortality....!?
No one saw THAT shit coming, bull rocks if you say you did... Uggghhh.. Heath?? But... How RUDE!
Hm, I have a chapter about my elm school and my death, maybe I need to get to clickin' a lil quicker, hm? Morgan and I are going on a lil date to Willoughby Elm.. I plan on filming some shit to show my family..
Who's next!? What if a member of 'N Sync or Backstreet goes?? I know, that's gay as hell to think about, or "gayelle" and that's some real shit. I would fucking DIE A THOUSAND DEATHS, NOOOOOO MATTER WHICH OF EITHER GROUP. TRUE FUCKIN' STORY...
I'm 'bout over this 'Celebrity Saw' that life feels like playing.. I don't even want to know who's next (lyyyyyying, but it's horrible)..
Don't let it be Mark or Ryan boyyyyyy... Out of pure vanity alone..
Basically, stay away from TUS (the usual suspects).. Jen, I know you feel me on that one...
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
RIP HEATH FUCKING LEDGER WHAT THE FUUUUUUCK!?!?
IF YOU'VE EVER HAD A CRUSH ON SOMEONE FAMOUS, NOW'S THE TIME TO GET THAT WORD OUT BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE WTFFFFFFFFUCK....
OMFG... I CAN'T BELIEVE IT...
OMFG... I CAN'T BELIEVE IT...
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
You have GOT to be fucking kidding me.. [RIP]
BRAD RENFRO!?!!? AS IN, THE LOOOOOOOOVE OF MY TWEEN LIFE!?!? I can't even say that, like I wasn't FULLY up-to-date on his doings.. DEF was on his imdb page the other day reading about the Winona movie..
OMFGAAAAAAAD I JUST WANT TO WATCH THE CLIENT AND CRYYYYY...
I am seriously in shock, lol. I swear, my childhood just got laid to rest. I'm mad now! I def remember writing him fan mail EONS ago, and making the envelope look so spiffy.. Aw, wtf.. I wanted to meet him SOOOOOO OOOOOO OOOOOO BAD... Uuuuuuuntil this morning when I got the bad news.. Interestingly enough, I was talking w/ my Ma AND my Pa, who I hadn't seen in over a year until this morning.. It was us, and my lil sis.. I'd rather not see my dad for another year, if that's the trade-off, lol.
UUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH I neeeeeed to know the cause of death.. Did he start using again!?!? GOD-GOD DAMMIT!
I can't do this! He was a DAY younger than me, how is he dead!?! I had a dream in Dec that he died, which prompted me to do a Google to stare @ random pics I've saved 57654435 times on diff comps.. The one that was in my old storage shed?? Sheeit..
I had soooooo many posters of him. DAMMIT! I have never wanted to watch Happy Campers more in my LIFE than right now.. Or Skipped Parts..
SOMEONE PLEASE CONSOLE ME.
If something happens to JTT, I'm OUT this bitch. Wrists, call them a wrap. It's not like it's something I will eventually not think about. EVERY year on July 25th, I make mention via bog/LiveJournal or wtf/e about his bday.. I have TWO Renfro s/ns that I will mooooooooost def be holding on to, esp now. Ya'll just don't KNOW. That was my dude.. I would react quicker to him than Ryan, or Mark, ANYONE. Ever since I was like, what, 11, 12!?!? JESUS. Lifetime obsession, lol. And you knoooooowwwwww how serious I take those..
I am truly upset. WTF!!!
Why not take Justinnnnnnoootttt gonna go that far, God bless the USA and Mr. Timberlake...
The pic w/ the red jacket, I used to DROOOOOOOOL my ass off when it was on my wall.. And the top left, amongst MANY others..
Aaaaand I just remembered that I stiiiiiiiill have my Brad Renfro Y! group, haha. E-O-N-S. I'm not playing, people. I was/am OOOOOOOOBBBBBB-SESSED w/ Brad Renfro..
Fuck it, ugh, I want to throw up so I'm just gonna end this now w/ a video I JUST FAVORITED THE OTHER DAY.......
*sniff, sniff*
♥
OMFGAAAAAAAD I JUST WANT TO WATCH THE CLIENT AND CRYYYYY...
I am seriously in shock, lol. I swear, my childhood just got laid to rest. I'm mad now! I def remember writing him fan mail EONS ago, and making the envelope look so spiffy.. Aw, wtf.. I wanted to meet him SOOOOOO OOOOOO OOOOOO BAD... Uuuuuuuntil this morning when I got the bad news.. Interestingly enough, I was talking w/ my Ma AND my Pa, who I hadn't seen in over a year until this morning.. It was us, and my lil sis.. I'd rather not see my dad for another year, if that's the trade-off, lol.
UUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH I neeeeeed to know the cause of death.. Did he start using again!?!? GOD-GOD DAMMIT!
I can't do this! He was a DAY younger than me, how is he dead!?! I had a dream in Dec that he died, which prompted me to do a Google to stare @ random pics I've saved 57654435 times on diff comps.. The one that was in my old storage shed?? Sheeit..
I had soooooo many posters of him. DAMMIT! I have never wanted to watch Happy Campers more in my LIFE than right now.. Or Skipped Parts..
SOMEONE PLEASE CONSOLE ME.
If something happens to JTT, I'm OUT this bitch. Wrists, call them a wrap. It's not like it's something I will eventually not think about. EVERY year on July 25th, I make mention via bog/LiveJournal or wtf/e about his bday.. I have TWO Renfro s/ns that I will mooooooooost def be holding on to, esp now. Ya'll just don't KNOW. That was my dude.. I would react quicker to him than Ryan, or Mark, ANYONE. Ever since I was like, what, 11, 12!?!? JESUS. Lifetime obsession, lol. And you knoooooowwwwww how serious I take those..
I am truly upset. WTF!!!
Why not take Justinnnnnnoootttt gonna go that far, God bless the USA and Mr. Timberlake...
The pic w/ the red jacket, I used to DROOOOOOOOL my ass off when it was on my wall.. And the top left, amongst MANY others..
Aaaaand I just remembered that I stiiiiiiiill have my Brad Renfro Y! group, haha. E-O-N-S. I'm not playing, people. I was/am OOOOOOOOBBBBBB-SESSED w/ Brad Renfro..
Fuck it, ugh, I want to throw up so I'm just gonna end this now w/ a video I JUST FAVORITED THE OTHER DAY.......
*sniff, sniff*
♥
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I just want to say....
nothing @ all.
Lauren is drunk.. Me, I'm chillin... Like a mafaka..!
Watching Intervention.. AWESOME. I just wrote about Intervention in the chapter of the book I was writing @ my Mas..
Haha, she just told this nigga he's so skinny she can count his ribs, and that it's hard to hide his skinny ass in long-sleeves.
Stevo apparently has a problem.
Bwahaha.
J/k, love ya homie.. Gotta go to bed.. Gma will be here tomorrow, deeeeeeeffffff not tryna have a repeat of when Lauren and I were @ the ER!
Goodnight! ♥
Lauren is drunk.. Me, I'm chillin... Like a mafaka..!
Watching Intervention.. AWESOME. I just wrote about Intervention in the chapter of the book I was writing @ my Mas..
Haha, she just told this nigga he's so skinny she can count his ribs, and that it's hard to hide his skinny ass in long-sleeves.
Stevo apparently has a problem.
Bwahaha.
J/k, love ya homie.. Gotta go to bed.. Gma will be here tomorrow, deeeeeeeffffff not tryna have a repeat of when Lauren and I were @ the ER!
Goodnight! ♥
Sunday, January 13, 2008
"We don't HAAAVE to take our.. Clothes ooooffff..."
"To have a good time, uh uhhhh..."
I'm THAT old, you're THIS young.... Or maybe I'm THAT black............
A
Are you available? For parties? Fuck yessssss.
What is your age? 25 years closer to death than Christina Aguilera or Nicole Richie's babies...
Astrology sign? Leo
B
Do you know anyone named Brian? A few..
When is your Birthday? July 24
Ever been stung by a bee? Once, bottom of the foot..
C
Whats your favorite candy? Prob a fresh ass Reese's big cup..
What color is your car? --
D
Do you daydream? I live to dream..
What's your favorite kind of dog? The one I saw ran over when Brandi and I were coming back from Pitts..
E
Have you ever been in the emergency room? Yeah, a few times..
Ever pet an elephant? When I was mad young..
Ever swam with sharks? I would..
F
Do you use fly swatters? Not in a grip..
Is there a fan in your room? No
Does the number four have any significance? Yes... No story tho.
Full name: nigga you dont know me. <--- LOL
G
Do you chew gum? yah. wintergreen <--- I was def just chewing some..
Do you like gory movies? To death.
H
How are you? Terrific.
What's your height? Taller.
What color is your hair? Brown
I
Have you ever ice skated? Nurp
J
Favorite Jelly bean? My favorite of any candy like that is usually cherry..
Do you wear jewelery? Noooot really..
K
Have you ever flown a kite? In my childhood..
Do you think kangaroos are cute? Until they box you out..
L
Are you laid back? Yessirrr..
Lions or tigers? Leo = Lion.
Do you like black licorice? TRIIIIIIIFE pretty much hate Jager for that simple fact..
M
Favorite place at the Mall? Which mall? Florida Mall? XLR8!
favorite movie? Plents.. Right now, The Chumscrubber orrrr Fried Green Tomatoes...
N
Do you prefer night or day? Stormy of either..
Do you have a nickname? LiLi
O
Are you an only child? Emotionally, haha.. How emo does that sound... Got a bro and a sis..
Do you like the color orange? Blaze orange, yeah..
Do you know anyone named Penelope? Pitstop?
Favorite flavor of popcorn? Cheese.. Buttery cheese..
R
Do you think you're always right? No, but I know when I am and you're not.
Do you watch reality tv? Certain shows..
S
Do you prefer sun or rain? Rain when I want to be alone..
Do you like snow? I do, VA disagrees.
T
Time you go to sleep? When I fall out.
U
Can you ride a unicycle? Uh, no.
V
Did you ever watch Veggietales? Fuck no.
W
What's your worst habit? Her.
What do you want right now? Her, haha j/k...
X
Have you ever had an x-ray? Don't think so..
Y
Do you like the color yellow? Uhh, sure I guess..
Do you yell when you're angry? Like a mafaka, but not always. I don't have to yell to get my point across - that's the beauty of being SMART. May wanna learn yourself about that... Most of the people who just agreed w/ me ususally sound like a braying donkey that just learned to swear, ten-to-one... Jackys...
Z
Do you believe in Zodiac signs? Uhh......
Lasts:
Last dream: Mad early this am, in Stevo's bed all snuggled up, lol.. Wasn't about him tho, def not.. I thought about you tho... Let me know when you're tryna get that appt taken care of, haha..
Phone call: To me, Angel.. From me? Uhh.. Stevo like a day ago, lol I hate calling people. I got mad incoming tho..
Text message: The one w/ the dick...
Last time you got hugged: Todaaaayyyyyyy by....... Jason?
Last night: W/ Brett and Rachel in BFE, haha.. Them, me obv, Lauren, Travis, and Brandi... Aaaaaand Morgan, durr.. Oh, and Stevo haha + dudeman that came over near the end.. Wow..
I'm THAT old, you're THIS young.... Or maybe I'm THAT black............
A
Are you available? For parties? Fuck yessssss.
What is your age? 25 years closer to death than Christina Aguilera or Nicole Richie's babies...
Astrology sign? Leo
B
Do you know anyone named Brian? A few..
When is your Birthday? July 24
Ever been stung by a bee? Once, bottom of the foot..
C
Whats your favorite candy? Prob a fresh ass Reese's big cup..
What color is your car? --
D
Do you daydream? I live to dream..
What's your favorite kind of dog? The one I saw ran over when Brandi and I were coming back from Pitts..
E
Have you ever been in the emergency room? Yeah, a few times..
Ever pet an elephant? When I was mad young..
Ever swam with sharks? I would..
F
Do you use fly swatters? Not in a grip..
Is there a fan in your room? No
Does the number four have any significance? Yes... No story tho.
Full name: nigga you dont know me. <--- LOL
G
Do you chew gum? yah. wintergreen <--- I was def just chewing some..
Do you like gory movies? To death.
H
How are you? Terrific.
What's your height? Taller.
What color is your hair? Brown
I
Have you ever ice skated? Nurp
J
Favorite Jelly bean? My favorite of any candy like that is usually cherry..
Do you wear jewelery? Noooot really..
K
Have you ever flown a kite? In my childhood..
Do you think kangaroos are cute? Until they box you out..
L
Are you laid back? Yessirrr..
Lions or tigers? Leo = Lion.
Do you like black licorice? TRIIIIIIIFE pretty much hate Jager for that simple fact..
M
Favorite place at the Mall? Which mall? Florida Mall? XLR8!
favorite movie? Plents.. Right now, The Chumscrubber orrrr Fried Green Tomatoes...
N
Do you prefer night or day? Stormy of either..
Do you have a nickname? LiLi
O
Are you an only child? Emotionally, haha.. How emo does that sound... Got a bro and a sis..
Do you like the color orange? Blaze orange, yeah..
Do you know anyone named Penelope? Pitstop?
Favorite flavor of popcorn? Cheese.. Buttery cheese..
R
Do you think you're always right? No, but I know when I am and you're not.
Do you watch reality tv? Certain shows..
S
Do you prefer sun or rain? Rain when I want to be alone..
Do you like snow? I do, VA disagrees.
T
Time you go to sleep? When I fall out.
U
Can you ride a unicycle? Uh, no.
V
Did you ever watch Veggietales? Fuck no.
W
What's your worst habit? Her.
What do you want right now? Her, haha j/k...
X
Have you ever had an x-ray? Don't think so..
Y
Do you like the color yellow? Uhh, sure I guess..
Do you yell when you're angry? Like a mafaka, but not always. I don't have to yell to get my point across - that's the beauty of being SMART. May wanna learn yourself about that... Most of the people who just agreed w/ me ususally sound like a braying donkey that just learned to swear, ten-to-one... Jackys...
Z
Do you believe in Zodiac signs? Uhh......
Lasts:
Last dream: Mad early this am, in Stevo's bed all snuggled up, lol.. Wasn't about him tho, def not.. I thought about you tho... Let me know when you're tryna get that appt taken care of, haha..
Phone call: To me, Angel.. From me? Uhh.. Stevo like a day ago, lol I hate calling people. I got mad incoming tho..
Text message: The one w/ the dick...
Last time you got hugged: Todaaaayyyyyyy by....... Jason?
Last night: W/ Brett and Rachel in BFE, haha.. Them, me obv, Lauren, Travis, and Brandi... Aaaaaand Morgan, durr.. Oh, and Stevo haha + dudeman that came over near the end.. Wow..
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
"A decade ago I never thought I would be..."
[Like 3 days ago]
"At 23 on the verge of spontaneous combustion, woe-is-me..."
I love you, Stevo.. Today I decided that as a lil mini-workout I would clean Gmas house and listen to some music. B/c I didn't have Young Modern w/ me (Silverchair, which I deeeeesp wanted to hear), I looked thru his cds and saw that he had Incubus - Make Yourself. Woooohooo, b/c I was really in the mood to sing along to something, something w/ MEANING to be more specific.
I hit the nail on the head, and now I feel soooooooooo lovely.. The house smells and looks great, plus I got to sit and think about all the things on my mind currently. Right now, that means myself and my own well being.
People are always worried about me and the way I do things.. Not w/o reason, but still...
When I was younger and always listening to Make Yourself, I def thought I understood it better than I did.. So many of the lyrics stand out to me now. The whole theme, really. I've GOT to make myself, I don't want your dream, your plan of how I should go about being an adult. Ever since I was a little kid, I was always out roaming around and discovering things, getting lost in the moment, and I always came out alive w/ a thousand stories to tell.. The song remains the same there, b/c I still do the same shit. I don't want to be ANYTHING other than what I have planned. No intermission, no nothing. All or nothing. I will NEVER be happy unless I do it my own way, and that's what you gotta understand.
NO-THING will make me happy, I've already learned that the hard way.. I'm not saying that a stronger sense of stability on diff terms wouldn't make me happy, but I'd still have the longing, the want to do something else.. The closer I'm getting to that goal, the happier I am inside, and that's all that matters to ME. My Ma gives me shit for the times that I come to her and NEEEEEED her, b/c she doesn't want me to be out struggling or w/e she thinks it is that's going on here.. Other than that, she usually has nothing to say. She even calls me her travelling rockstar, haha. I've had the same goals for as long as I can remember, so it's not like I've come to her 655487567 times like, "Ma, I changed my mind, I want to be a _____." or w/e, I'm on the same path I always was, I'm just wiser about the steps I take.
I'm so excited about so many things right now, none unrealistic or childish, just things I can't really explain to you w/o struggling to make you GAF, haha. There's one event in particular coming up in March that I'm REEEEEALLY stoked about, and hopefully will have some good news to report here soon.
Ohhh, the joooooyyyyy and splendor I will feel.. Tra-la-la, etc etc, BIG SMIIIIILE for the finish!!!
Ugh.
So yeah, don't worry your pretty little heads about me. I'll be this way 'til my dyin' daaaaaaaaaaaaaaays, and I mean that.
Awesome update - When I was on the phone w/ TJ like a day ago, the topic of my well-being was brought up.. I thanked him for caring BEFORE I post this, b/c mad people usually reply asking me a thousand ?s after the fact.. If you care, just care.. I know you do, I have no doubts about who really gaf about me.. No need to put extra emphasis..
I'm worried about myself, don't think I'm just gully as all fuck or w/e, but that's just like health issues etc..
Any problem, mentally or physically, it's not like I'm gonna let you help me anyway, right!?!?! That's what most of you say, haha.. It's true tho.. I really don't see my pains' importance stacked up against the other shit going on w/ my friends. It's always been like that tho, just how I am... I've spent the last 3-4 years trying to help everyone else get THEIR shit straight, even tho I know I need it the most.
I don't know, man.. Don't listen to me, do whatever you feel like you have to.. I know I need "saving", but I don't see you as the Savior soooo....
*YOU*, yes, but you don't know that you could do it w/ the greatest of ease, and I won't tell you.
So if you don't mind.......
"At 23 on the verge of spontaneous combustion, woe-is-me..."
I love you, Stevo.. Today I decided that as a lil mini-workout I would clean Gmas house and listen to some music. B/c I didn't have Young Modern w/ me (Silverchair, which I deeeeesp wanted to hear), I looked thru his cds and saw that he had Incubus - Make Yourself. Woooohooo, b/c I was really in the mood to sing along to something, something w/ MEANING to be more specific.
I hit the nail on the head, and now I feel soooooooooo lovely.. The house smells and looks great, plus I got to sit and think about all the things on my mind currently. Right now, that means myself and my own well being.
People are always worried about me and the way I do things.. Not w/o reason, but still...
When I was younger and always listening to Make Yourself, I def thought I understood it better than I did.. So many of the lyrics stand out to me now. The whole theme, really. I've GOT to make myself, I don't want your dream, your plan of how I should go about being an adult. Ever since I was a little kid, I was always out roaming around and discovering things, getting lost in the moment, and I always came out alive w/ a thousand stories to tell.. The song remains the same there, b/c I still do the same shit. I don't want to be ANYTHING other than what I have planned. No intermission, no nothing. All or nothing. I will NEVER be happy unless I do it my own way, and that's what you gotta understand.
NO-THING will make me happy, I've already learned that the hard way.. I'm not saying that a stronger sense of stability on diff terms wouldn't make me happy, but I'd still have the longing, the want to do something else.. The closer I'm getting to that goal, the happier I am inside, and that's all that matters to ME. My Ma gives me shit for the times that I come to her and NEEEEEED her, b/c she doesn't want me to be out struggling or w/e she thinks it is that's going on here.. Other than that, she usually has nothing to say. She even calls me her travelling rockstar, haha. I've had the same goals for as long as I can remember, so it's not like I've come to her 655487567 times like, "Ma, I changed my mind, I want to be a _____." or w/e, I'm on the same path I always was, I'm just wiser about the steps I take.
I'm so excited about so many things right now, none unrealistic or childish, just things I can't really explain to you w/o struggling to make you GAF, haha. There's one event in particular coming up in March that I'm REEEEEALLY stoked about, and hopefully will have some good news to report here soon.
Ohhh, the joooooyyyyy and splendor I will feel.. Tra-la-la, etc etc, BIG SMIIIIILE for the finish!!!
Ugh.
So yeah, don't worry your pretty little heads about me. I'll be this way 'til my dyin' daaaaaaaaaaaaaaays, and I mean that.
Awesome update - When I was on the phone w/ TJ like a day ago, the topic of my well-being was brought up.. I thanked him for caring BEFORE I post this, b/c mad people usually reply asking me a thousand ?s after the fact.. If you care, just care.. I know you do, I have no doubts about who really gaf about me.. No need to put extra emphasis..
I'm worried about myself, don't think I'm just gully as all fuck or w/e, but that's just like health issues etc..
Any problem, mentally or physically, it's not like I'm gonna let you help me anyway, right!?!?! That's what most of you say, haha.. It's true tho.. I really don't see my pains' importance stacked up against the other shit going on w/ my friends. It's always been like that tho, just how I am... I've spent the last 3-4 years trying to help everyone else get THEIR shit straight, even tho I know I need it the most.
I don't know, man.. Don't listen to me, do whatever you feel like you have to.. I know I need "saving", but I don't see you as the Savior soooo....
*YOU*, yes, but you don't know that you could do it w/ the greatest of ease, and I won't tell you.
So if you don't mind.......
So uhh, I met Christian Finnegan on Sunday...
But that's not what this is about. It won't be about that until I Photobucket the proof of said encounter. Just know that I was fucking STOKED beyond belief, even tho BRANDI jumped into my pic, lol.
*kicks dirt on her Malibu Barbie*
But uhh, this is about Stevo, the goddamn idiot Lauren calls an older brother. Of course, LAUREN is the goddamn idiot that STEVO calls his younger sister, but I'll let them battle to the death over who's more aloof.
My vote goes to Stevo.............whenlaurensnothigh.
Anyway, THIS jacky is telling me that one of our friends moved to Louisiana, and I was like, "Oh really, when the fuck was THAT??"
"Uhh, it'll be a year this November..."
.............................................................................................
This... November...... Meaning, he SHOULD'VE just said three fucking months ago, but being the super genius that he is, that's the answer I got.. Nigga, there is still turkey in someone's fridge RIGHT fuckin' now..
I laughed so fucking hard, and didn't even explain why. I ♥ a geniune, 100%, Grade A jacky. Stevo's little anecdotes (AN-EEK-DOTES, DUMB FUCK) rock my world. He's never out of short little re-re tales to soothe the soul! That's why he makes a great man-boo.
I would give you a Best Week Ever clip, but you're not THAT cool. I'll give you a "Oh hey, that guy" to ease your way into the awesomeness that is Christian Finnegan.
Yesssssssssss.
*kicks dirt on her Malibu Barbie*
But uhh, this is about Stevo, the goddamn idiot Lauren calls an older brother. Of course, LAUREN is the goddamn idiot that STEVO calls his younger sister, but I'll let them battle to the death over who's more aloof.
My vote goes to Stevo.............whenlaurensnothigh.
Anyway, THIS jacky is telling me that one of our friends moved to Louisiana, and I was like, "Oh really, when the fuck was THAT??"
"Uhh, it'll be a year this November..."
.............................................................................................
This... November...... Meaning, he SHOULD'VE just said three fucking months ago, but being the super genius that he is, that's the answer I got.. Nigga, there is still turkey in someone's fridge RIGHT fuckin' now..
I laughed so fucking hard, and didn't even explain why. I ♥ a geniune, 100%, Grade A jacky. Stevo's little anecdotes (AN-EEK-DOTES, DUMB FUCK) rock my world. He's never out of short little re-re tales to soothe the soul! That's why he makes a great man-boo.
I would give you a Best Week Ever clip, but you're not THAT cool. I'll give you a "Oh hey, that guy" to ease your way into the awesomeness that is Christian Finnegan.
Yesssssssssss.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Woooooow, how have I never seen these??
Greatest video collections EVER. I don't give a FUCK, no other generation will have cartoons better than us...
GREATEST. I def just took a severe trip down memory lane. SO glad I was born in '82, or I wouldn't remember half this shit, I bet... THIS IS AWESOME.. There's a 90s one that I'm about to watch, I'll just jump the gun and assume it's great. Along w/ the fact that I've been writing and saving blogs for a miiiiiinute, I've also been looking up mad old Nick Jr shit, which led to this.. We watched half an ep of Gullah Gullah Island a minute ago.. Neither I nor Jessica remember it being thaaaaaat gay, but oh well. Most of the shit we've watched has been.. Allegra's Window, wooooow I was def like 12 watching that, lmmfao. Fuckin' home-school, man.. That's how I saw all that bs..
Two themes in and I'm fuckin' STOKED.. This is helping my memories come back so hardcore.. Awwwww, it just adds to my happiness as of late.. I soooooo want to take pics in and outside of Willoughby.. I want to make the entire walk to school from where my house used to be, and then go inside school.. I remember where all my classrooms are, so I could easily go thru each grade.. I remember it all, Mrs. Blount, Miss Green, Mrs. Lyons, Miss Green's bitch ass AGAIN, then I thiiiiink I had Mrs. Alexander, but we got that new teacher.. Mrs. Glouchowski??? Somethin' like that.. Aaaaaaand then Mrs. Forrest, w/ the huge hips. She could lay her hands down FLAT on them bitches... WOW. Aw. I don't feel so bad about getting old, b/c I still remember the young shit.. Maybe that's why I was freaking out, a horrible lapse in memory loss.. But now mad shit has been flooding me for almost a year straight, mostly the past few months. I LOVED being a kid, but I love being me who I am now. If I changed anything then, I prob wouldn't be this crazy asshole I am now..
I must've had fuckin' amnesia or something, cuz so much shit just ran thru my head reading what I wrote last night.. Btw, it's the 6th now, def wrote this hours ago.. I woke up w/ this craaaaaazy feeling of being in kindergarten and the smells of clay, the nap mats... All sorts of shit.. I knoooow you remember them red on one, blue on the other side mats.. Those were the jump off, even tho if you moved an INCH, your ass was MOOOOOST DEF on the floor, lmmfao.. I would need to quilt like 7 together @ this point..
Aw.. DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT I neeeeeed to cap it all off.. I'm going to the school ASAP, and someone def needs to go w/ me.. Morgan, you're all about memories just like me, so we can do it together, and we'lll do it in NE when we go.. Deal??
Wooooooorrrrrrrd...
PS, def noticed the insane amount of Silverchair vids I've posted on here.. Just imagine if I had to go thru all of them, haha.. Some in the same week, same vid and all..
Ah, well.... I chose this b/c I spend so much time before and after going to bed thinking about the most random shit possible, which def makes me lose sleep.. If I fall asleep sitting up, and wake up to lay down, I'll most def spend like an hour daydreaming.. That's why when people ask me if I'm asleep b/c I look like I am, usually I can hear but you I have an amazing zone power and I'm usually trying to drift further away from anything you're saying, so the more you talk, the more likely I am to just fall asleep and dream a little dream, UNINTERRUPTED.
GREATEST. I def just took a severe trip down memory lane. SO glad I was born in '82, or I wouldn't remember half this shit, I bet... THIS IS AWESOME.. There's a 90s one that I'm about to watch, I'll just jump the gun and assume it's great. Along w/ the fact that I've been writing and saving blogs for a miiiiiinute, I've also been looking up mad old Nick Jr shit, which led to this.. We watched half an ep of Gullah Gullah Island a minute ago.. Neither I nor Jessica remember it being thaaaaaat gay, but oh well. Most of the shit we've watched has been.. Allegra's Window, wooooow I was def like 12 watching that, lmmfao. Fuckin' home-school, man.. That's how I saw all that bs..
Two themes in and I'm fuckin' STOKED.. This is helping my memories come back so hardcore.. Awwwww, it just adds to my happiness as of late.. I soooooo want to take pics in and outside of Willoughby.. I want to make the entire walk to school from where my house used to be, and then go inside school.. I remember where all my classrooms are, so I could easily go thru each grade.. I remember it all, Mrs. Blount, Miss Green, Mrs. Lyons, Miss Green's bitch ass AGAIN, then I thiiiiink I had Mrs. Alexander, but we got that new teacher.. Mrs. Glouchowski??? Somethin' like that.. Aaaaaaand then Mrs. Forrest, w/ the huge hips. She could lay her hands down FLAT on them bitches... WOW. Aw. I don't feel so bad about getting old, b/c I still remember the young shit.. Maybe that's why I was freaking out, a horrible lapse in memory loss.. But now mad shit has been flooding me for almost a year straight, mostly the past few months. I LOVED being a kid, but I love being me who I am now. If I changed anything then, I prob wouldn't be this crazy asshole I am now..
I must've had fuckin' amnesia or something, cuz so much shit just ran thru my head reading what I wrote last night.. Btw, it's the 6th now, def wrote this hours ago.. I woke up w/ this craaaaaazy feeling of being in kindergarten and the smells of clay, the nap mats... All sorts of shit.. I knoooow you remember them red on one, blue on the other side mats.. Those were the jump off, even tho if you moved an INCH, your ass was MOOOOOST DEF on the floor, lmmfao.. I would need to quilt like 7 together @ this point..
Aw.. DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT I neeeeeed to cap it all off.. I'm going to the school ASAP, and someone def needs to go w/ me.. Morgan, you're all about memories just like me, so we can do it together, and we'lll do it in NE when we go.. Deal??
Wooooooorrrrrrrd...
PS, def noticed the insane amount of Silverchair vids I've posted on here.. Just imagine if I had to go thru all of them, haha.. Some in the same week, same vid and all..
Ah, well.... I chose this b/c I spend so much time before and after going to bed thinking about the most random shit possible, which def makes me lose sleep.. If I fall asleep sitting up, and wake up to lay down, I'll most def spend like an hour daydreaming.. That's why when people ask me if I'm asleep b/c I look like I am, usually I can hear but you I have an amazing zone power and I'm usually trying to drift further away from anything you're saying, so the more you talk, the more likely I am to just fall asleep and dream a little dream, UNINTERRUPTED.
Iiiiiii ♥ 311....
[Yesterday]
I didn't even listen to the video I put on the blog earlier, I couldn't.. But now.. Aw... It will never get old, b/c they def got me thru way too much in my life for them not to hold the 3/4/5-way tie in the end... I've said this so many times, that just makes it that much more truuuuuueeee story..!
How can I not??
Timeless...
LMMFAO, def didn't expect THAT much weed.. I thought it was gonna stay pics and weed, not all the way thru hahaha...
I was def supposed to post that instead of the other one, but I thought it was funny that it had no pics for real..
I can remember singing the 20 years of age part, and that being something to look forward to, and now I'm thinking back.. Not too far back now, that comes once I'm past all the years mentioned. Oh, will I ever stop crying when that hppens? Haha..
I didn't even listen to the video I put on the blog earlier, I couldn't.. But now.. Aw... It will never get old, b/c they def got me thru way too much in my life for them not to hold the 3/4/5-way tie in the end... I've said this so many times, that just makes it that much more truuuuuueeee story..!
How can I not??
Timeless...
LMMFAO, def didn't expect THAT much weed.. I thought it was gonna stay pics and weed, not all the way thru hahaha...
I was def supposed to post that instead of the other one, but I thought it was funny that it had no pics for real..
I can remember singing the 20 years of age part, and that being something to look forward to, and now I'm thinking back.. Not too far back now, that comes once I'm past all the years mentioned. Oh, will I ever stop crying when that hppens? Haha..
Saturday, January 5, 2008
I Know This Much Is True. [open letter]
In my own little "not really" way, I'm so over everyone in this town.
My description of Virginia Beach, a small city w/ big city dreams, fits perfectly. There's so many ignorant people running around thinking their ideals on life and the way THEY think things should be are so big and bold, meanwhile it's just them peddling a collage of misplaced rants and stolen social commentary, w/ a few of their own thoughts strewn in. I have so many simple-minded friends, w/ their own like-minded friends fueling the mass retardation. Of COURSE they agree w/ you... THEY don't have half of a fucking clue themselves, you just wouldn't know the difference.
What I'm basically saying is that I've spent a quarter-of-a-century in this bitch, the last 8 being the most prolific. I've thrown away some of the best ideas ever conjured on some bullshit journal or blog. Until these past few years I hadn't had someone in my life w/ the insight strong enough to open my eyes. I'm so above and beyond it, it's unreal.. That's why it all irks me so quickly. I wish you could get it, but you don't. You COULDN'T, and you won't.
There are a select few that I love regardless (def just realized I spelled that wrong here recently), but other than that.....
You are simply and utterly a waste of my time that I've made acceptable. Thanks for the memories, but they're getting quite stale. We're running on fumes @ this point. I'm not gonna turn my back on my dreams b/c you don't get it. It's not my job to make you understand just b/c I know I could. It's time to let ya'll play catch-up. And if you don't, well, it's been less than real but real fun nonetheless.
Let's see if you know the ledge...
My description of Virginia Beach, a small city w/ big city dreams, fits perfectly. There's so many ignorant people running around thinking their ideals on life and the way THEY think things should be are so big and bold, meanwhile it's just them peddling a collage of misplaced rants and stolen social commentary, w/ a few of their own thoughts strewn in. I have so many simple-minded friends, w/ their own like-minded friends fueling the mass retardation. Of COURSE they agree w/ you... THEY don't have half of a fucking clue themselves, you just wouldn't know the difference.
What I'm basically saying is that I've spent a quarter-of-a-century in this bitch, the last 8 being the most prolific. I've thrown away some of the best ideas ever conjured on some bullshit journal or blog. Until these past few years I hadn't had someone in my life w/ the insight strong enough to open my eyes. I'm so above and beyond it, it's unreal.. That's why it all irks me so quickly. I wish you could get it, but you don't. You COULDN'T, and you won't.
There are a select few that I love regardless (def just realized I spelled that wrong here recently), but other than that.....
You are simply and utterly a waste of my time that I've made acceptable. Thanks for the memories, but they're getting quite stale. We're running on fumes @ this point. I'm not gonna turn my back on my dreams b/c you don't get it. It's not my job to make you understand just b/c I know I could. It's time to let ya'll play catch-up. And if you don't, well, it's been less than real but real fun nonetheless.
Let's see if you know the ledge...
Am I a cunt for being SUUUUPER EXCITED???
[I really DGAF b/c I've been waiting for this since they were DATING. I wonder how the next Silverchair record will sound... Angsty love-hurt?? Hm, I wonderrrr...]
Australian sweethearts Natalie Imbruglia and Daniel Johns are getting divorced.
Sad.
The couple just released the following statement, announcing their split.
"While we are very sad that our marriage has ended, we want to make it clear that our parting is amicable and we remain friends. This mutual decision has not been taken lightly or quickly.
However, our career demands and our lives in different parts of the world have brought us to the point where unfortunately this difficult decision was necessary for both of us.
We have simply grown apart through not being able to spend enough time together.
We have issued this statement to set the record straight and to eliminate any need for speculation.
We will not be making any further public statements whatsoever in regard to this very private matter and politely ask that people respect our sincere wishes in this regard."
[Photo and story from Perrrrrezzzz]
Australian sweethearts Natalie Imbruglia and Daniel Johns are getting divorced.
Sad.
The couple just released the following statement, announcing their split.
"While we are very sad that our marriage has ended, we want to make it clear that our parting is amicable and we remain friends. This mutual decision has not been taken lightly or quickly.
However, our career demands and our lives in different parts of the world have brought us to the point where unfortunately this difficult decision was necessary for both of us.
We have simply grown apart through not being able to spend enough time together.
We have issued this statement to set the record straight and to eliminate any need for speculation.
We will not be making any further public statements whatsoever in regard to this very private matter and politely ask that people respect our sincere wishes in this regard."
[Photo and story from Perrrrrezzzz]
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
And you, nigga.......
I learned an awesome lesson last year. If you tell the truth, the lies don't matter.
Oh, boy... You and me...
We are everything and nothing alike, that's why I know you so well, that's why I'll always love your fuckin' ass, b/c I know where you are... You just don't think I do, even tho I can prove it a thousand times over. We never would've clicked like we did if it wasn't that way...
We're two horrible people w/ semi-working filters to keep it on the low, haha..
She doesn't understand why I get so mad @ her... In her, I see my own problem, not being able to walk away from it.. There's so much drama that comes w/ being your friend, but it's apparently nothing I can't handle haha. We've been soooooo mad @ each other for some craaaaazy shit, but in the end, something happens to the both of us where we know we need to get together and scheme scheme, plot plot and work some shit out.
I love you, and I love them... Fuuuuuuuck it, right?? Just like my Ma told you years ago, I'm tryna rock it 'til the wheels fall off, and I wouldn't change anything that we've been thru, not even the worst shit. Actually, I'm lying b/c I def cried to you that I would change ________________, but that doesn't count.
I sure do love me some fuck-ups, eh??
Oh, boy... You and me...
We are everything and nothing alike, that's why I know you so well, that's why I'll always love your fuckin' ass, b/c I know where you are... You just don't think I do, even tho I can prove it a thousand times over. We never would've clicked like we did if it wasn't that way...
We're two horrible people w/ semi-working filters to keep it on the low, haha..
She doesn't understand why I get so mad @ her... In her, I see my own problem, not being able to walk away from it.. There's so much drama that comes w/ being your friend, but it's apparently nothing I can't handle haha. We've been soooooo mad @ each other for some craaaaazy shit, but in the end, something happens to the both of us where we know we need to get together and scheme scheme, plot plot and work some shit out.
I love you, and I love them... Fuuuuuuuck it, right?? Just like my Ma told you years ago, I'm tryna rock it 'til the wheels fall off, and I wouldn't change anything that we've been thru, not even the worst shit. Actually, I'm lying b/c I def cried to you that I would change ________________, but that doesn't count.
I sure do love me some fuck-ups, eh??
Well, SHANNAN......
Next time you fall madly in love w/ someone, make sure they give some sort of a fuck about you, m'kay???
You wanna be w/ Griff so bad, cash in your Frequent Fuck-buddy miles and make your way to FL...
Even tho it's common knowledge that HE'S in love w/ someone else.....
GRIFF, you ain't gotta lie to kick it, nigga....
And to everyone that told Brandi to play nice etc, FUCK you, Brandi ain't gotta be nice to a GODDAMN person, cuz all ya'll fuckin' do is lie and cover up when people are out ho'n... Ain't no more of that fake ass keep the peace shit goin' down... She tried tonight, and it blew up in her face...
WEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLL that's that, see her next time, let's talk about how THAT'S gonna end....
AAAAAAAA, IT AIN'T BEEN SIX FUCKIN' YEARS SINCE YOU MET/FUCKED, BBBBBB, BRANDI IS ABOUT OOOOOOOOOOOVER IT,
LOVE you to death, Gurry, but you need to pull in the reigns on fuckin' Alica Silverstone (aaaand for those who didn't get that ref, Google 'The Crush') while she's out there sayin' it's real love and shit...
And NO, this isn't MY business but it's MY bitch soooooooo YEAH, I SAID IT........
FUCK 2008.
You wanna be w/ Griff so bad, cash in your Frequent Fuck-buddy miles and make your way to FL...
Even tho it's common knowledge that HE'S in love w/ someone else.....
GRIFF, you ain't gotta lie to kick it, nigga....
And to everyone that told Brandi to play nice etc, FUCK you, Brandi ain't gotta be nice to a GODDAMN person, cuz all ya'll fuckin' do is lie and cover up when people are out ho'n... Ain't no more of that fake ass keep the peace shit goin' down... She tried tonight, and it blew up in her face...
WEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLL that's that, see her next time, let's talk about how THAT'S gonna end....
AAAAAAAA, IT AIN'T BEEN SIX FUCKIN' YEARS SINCE YOU MET/FUCKED, BBBBBB, BRANDI IS ABOUT OOOOOOOOOOOVER IT,
LOVE you to death, Gurry, but you need to pull in the reigns on fuckin' Alica Silverstone (aaaand for those who didn't get that ref, Google 'The Crush') while she's out there sayin' it's real love and shit...
And NO, this isn't MY business but it's MY bitch soooooooo YEAH, I SAID IT........
FUCK 2008.
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