Cover me w/ kisses, baby...

Cover me w/ looove...



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I love this man...

Don't stop.. Thiiiiiinkin' about to-moooooorrow, don't stop, it'll soon be heeere!

It'll beeeee better than befooore.. Yesterday's gone, yeeeeeeesterday's gooone..

CLINTON! CLINTON! CLINTON!

God, everyone was so STOKED.. I want to be the president. Just so that one day, I can be a former Prezzz and get the warm welcoming that Bill gets in that opener..

I can do what he does.. Don't you think??

I wonder if Hillary ever looks @ Bill and thinks, "God, I can't wait til this is over so we can go hump." haha. Proooooobably not, but who knows for sure??

My dude has 'em amped, boy.. Did ya'll watch the DNC last night?? I didn't catch Billy Boy, soooooo I am now.. It's not that long of a video, just 24:47.. If you care, that is.

Which you should! If you're not gonna live a life of complete anarchy, you should care. I would remove my knuckle tats to care further, no bs. I'd get it re-done somewhere else, buuuuut lol..

Anyway just wanted to see who was paying attention to the future of their country.. We all know I'm a sucker for politics. So juicy/interesting. You don't know what you're missing, lol. Maybe I'll become a lobbyist or some shit.



Woo, Hil, the hair was haaaaaaaaaaaaarrible.

I put some pics from my bday up...

So much more random shit happened, but I don't like interrupting real moments for the sake of a pic, esp when I remember it all anyway..

We saw mad people we hadn't seen in forever that just happened to be @ the beach, but they aren't celebs, I don't need to grab a quick pic to prove it haha..

We were the real stars, baby!!

Well, us and SCOOBY DOO!



Ugh, I had sooooo much fun, and soooo many strong/free drinks, lol. For those who either a. don't live in VA or b. do but don't go to the block, you def get a free shot from every bar on your bday.. I got quite a few, and half of them were TRIFE. As hell. I spit one back into the cup, and THEN took it, lmmfao.. I'm pretty sure that was @ Retro..

Thaaaaaat's where I ran into Mur and Dylan, he who spits the hot fiya! Hm yeah it was..

Anyway yeah there's some pics up like I said.. To all that I did see, ty and I loooove you.. To all the people COMPLAINING that I "didn't tell them what I was doing", uhh.. I did....kinda.. I said I'd be @ the beach/block.. That doesn't have to be specific, just means wait for me to pop up!

And I did!

"Stop me, oh ohhh stop meee...

Stop me if you think that you've heard this one before...

Nothing's chaaaanged, I stiiiiiill looove yooouu.. Oh, I still loooooove you.. Only slightly, only slightly less than Iiii used to.... My looove.."



Still my mafakin' jam.. On the flight to WA I listened to it like 20 times in a row, no bullshit.. I wish there wou've been a repeat option on the lil headrest video jank cuz clicking on the song over and over got old real quick, lol.. It was fuckin' w/ my mellow, maaaannnn...

Btw, it was just the song, not the actual vid (which would've been cool).. The music was free to listen to so I was jammin.. It took everything in me not to stand up and just start gettin' it.. Esp since they had the entire Mark Ronson album on there.. Stop Me, Pretty Green, Amy, Just, Valerie, and Oh My God were on steady rotation.. I'd play them all, then Stop Me like 6 times..

This song stops me in my tracks everytime I hear it @ random.. Makes me want to jam in a NYC nightclub.. But only if it's the cinematic version where everything is perfect and I'm all in the groove, w/ my lover (Daniel Johns) groovin' w/ me.. Sweat everywhere, etc etc blah blah.. Lights going cuckoo.. All that good shit..

Oh, and in this version, I'm def skinny. Just to throw THAT out there.. If we're dreamin' big, let's reach for the stars, eh?

"Set me freeee, why don't you babe? Get out my life, why don't you babe.. Cuz you don't really love me, no, you just keeeep me hangin' on.. "

Which, I might add, is the way I feel about some of my friends.. In the friendly way, of course..

Sometimes you gotta set yourself free.. People get comfortable having you around, and then it's just that. It's comfy, cushy, whatever. But is it friendship?

Walking away from people that are dear to you is never an easy task, but fuck it.. I can't think of too much in my life that IS coming to me easily, so why not? Even if it's just for a short period of time.. Just make sure that it's ENOUGH time, more for yourself than the other person @ that.. Waiting on someone else to change is a trying experience, trust and believe. I've been doing that for a grip, or I was until last week..

Talk about "careful what you wish for"... Change isn't always for the best (sorry Obama, lol), so don't hold your breath when you feel the earth start to shift. That's prob the best time to start running in the other direction.

True story...

This is how child molesters are spawned. Blame it on the media.



I can sooooooooooooo specifically remember talking to ASH IDE (omfg Jen.. love getting old b/c that was def like, '01) about wack-ass Dream Street, amongst other boybands that were supposed to "take over".. Def said that their wannabe Nick Carter was the only one of them that could sing/was "cute" (in a kid way, it wasn't THAT serious, triiife)..

However, they shoulda cuffed me then, cuz the next time I paid any attention to anything having to do w/ DS was when Jesse McCartney came out w/ Beautiful Soul.. Aaaaaaaand Dez, I know you remember how many times that shit got played in MA, lmmfao.. But you're older than me, so that made you the bigger Chester, haha..



"Baby, do you think you could want me too?...."

Nnnnnnnnot legally?? Not yet anyway...

Aaaand then, there was Right Where You Want Me.. I MUST find the blogs from both videos, prob on LiveJournal (esp for the BS one), b/c I want to see what pervacious things I had to say.. I know when the vid aired I was like, "Really, cuz right where I want you is 18....." jeeeeeez.



"Baby, don't be gentle.. I can handle anything..."

As long as that includes the trial and potential jail time.. Altho he was def 18 @ the time.. Wow, can you read yourself, Lisa?? Wtf are you saying!?!?

But I digress... The point issssssss (yes, there is one), don't be sleepin' on my future restraining order! He's actually a pretty good writer (Bleeding Love, anyone?) and I dgaf what anyone says cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuz we'regonnagetmarriedandhavelotsofbabiesalmostasoldastheirdaddyandit'sgonnabethebestlifeeverandever♥AAAAAAAAAAMEN!

Btw...

I've had soooooo much fun lately, even thru all the bullshit that I'm going thru.. I eradicated a lot of drama, kinda trimmin' the fat, so WATCH OUT.. You could be next, lol.. My life is drama dipped in shit, rinsed in tears and dried w/ the steam coming off of my brain..

But!

Buuuuuut!

Everythings gonna be alright...........♥

I shall discuss more later...!

It's getting to that point...

Now, I've been talking about this kid (eek!) since fo eva.. But now??

Lawd..

As if this wasn't enough for me to be join the Baby-Sitter's Club;



He had to go and do this;



I thought I was going to hate it.. Guuueeeeeessssss not.. I always hated his cover of Robin Thicke - The Stupid Things, but that's b/c it was so clean/white-washed. The T-Pain cover was basically in the same grain.. If he re-did it, it would prob be more to my liking.. Yanno, now that he's "grown"..

Mm...♥

I ♥ you, Flapjack...

One of the only constants in my life... I give up on trying to keep anything else.. Friends, shelter... lol

Goddamn..

Dream On... *waaaaaaaaaahhhhh* (that's the HBO noise)...

Normally, I love my dreams. Adoooooooore them. Only lately, those dreams I awaken to seem to be more like nightmares. Not of epic proportion, but still. Epic to my family.

And somehow, still, KNOWING that I have a lot of shit going on, people feel the need to antagonize me..

SORRY that I'm not all wrapped up in your sordid affairs like everyone else "in the know" seem to be.. I dgaf about anything going on in ANYONE'S life, I don't care..

If you really really really miss me, awesome, me too, now FUCK OFF.. That sounds harsh as hell but like I said, I dgaf.. The other night was a prime example of a bunch of people who need to get over themselves.. I was surrounded by people who "care", just not enough to be a real friend like they used to be.. Someone recently said to me that I've done a complete 360, personality-wise..

Uhh, says who... YOU!? Oh, maybe the both of you, in some sweet, loving, vomit-inducing, treacherous imbrace.. I've changed only in the sense that I am keeping good on the promises I make/have made to myself.. Something seem a little off to you? My bad, just the realness seeping thru, I suppose..

Everyone who's made a complaint about me recently is more than likely somebody who doesn't really know me.. Like, they KNOW me, but they obv don't knoooooowwwwwwww me.. Look around, look @ us.. If the nature of our friendship coasts along b/c of something I do, but you don't know that, then you're one of those people.. W/e you percieved me as from the gate, let it be known that it was my doing.. No one sees a diff side of me by accident, let that also be known.. Whoever you think I am, it's b/c of me, not just what you've "observed", b/c I know you're watching. I always do, don't ever think you K-N-O-W -M-E, not like THAT, not enough to let the balance of power fall towards you. Everyone can get the fuck over themselves, esp anyone who thinks their friendship isn't expendable.. I can live w/o each and every fucking one of you if I have to, I'd just like you to know that. All the games are over. You want me? Come and get me.

Actually, I'd LOVE IT if you'd really try and "get" me.. That would be MUUUUCH PREESH'D...

If you're currently living in a series of lies that you don't think I know about, this def includes you. I looooooooo-oooooooo-ooooooove all the people who STILL don't get it, don't realize that I had them @ HELLO...

I've been sitting back, stockpiling the lies, even new ones from other places.. Oh, my! What have you DONE!?!

*chuckles*

It's funny, I thought it was just a phase, but looking back, this has aaaaaaaalways been your thing.. The deception for naught, everything.. Winter of '04, a friend of ours fell out w/ you after agreeing to a comment I made to you in a text.. Remember that?? That was the first time I pulled your card as far as your lightswitch personality/friendship goes.. So technically, you've been this way all along, I just let it go every time.. Buuuuuuuuuut now, esp w/ more important things to worry about, it proves itself to be soooo not worth any of it..

ANY.

Call it a wrap.

PS, that whole thing obv wasn't for just one person. Disect and decide, then go about your day, and I shall do the same.



♥s and flowers, bitch.

Love ya, MEAN IT! :D

R.I.P. Bernie Mac... :(

Seriously, he was one of the best comedians to ever walk the earth.. I really wanted to meet him... AAAAUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHH!!!

Who needs dreams?? All the people I want to meet are fucking dying/dead, THANKS BRAD BARRON RENFRO, MOST DEF DIDN'T NEED THAT IN MY LIFE..

OMFG.. BEEEEEEERRRRRRNIIIIIIIEEEEEE!!!!!!

Myke and I were JUST talking about him right before we went to bed.. Apart, thanks, jic...

We were doing the retarded kid bit from KOC, w/ the bus driver etc.. He's one of the main reasons I just say what the fuck I want to say.. He made it in spite of his brutal honesty/realness, and I will too.. Fuck that..

So strange, I was juuuuuust pre-blogging in my head downstairs, and it ties into that theme.. In honor of my nigga Bernie Mac, I plan to stand said ground always.

Rest in peace, man...