Kibbles & bitches....

I feel like my current living situation is allowing me to be a lot more lax about things than I should be. It's not like I'm not writing, but there are so many other aspects to it. I don't want to complain b/c it almost feels like there's no reason to be. Does that make sense?? I just.......... I dunno. Time management. My life's clock against the time-consuming lifestyle of everything and nothing.

It has nothing to do w/ anyone or anything but me, so it's just this internal ball of wtf.. Like, even the blogging.. This isn't the only place I'm known for writing, but that's another part of me that's w/e...

I feel like I go to sleep @ night on a bed of quicksand. Does THAT make sense?? Like another night of rest begats another day of troubled thoughts and feelings. There's something I should and COULD be doing, and I'm not. I bear the burden of knowing better, and an even heavier burden that rests on a particularly prickly part of my poor brain.

bnhi nim nacho (I just used Nacho's paw to type "Hi, I'm Nacho" lol)

What's not helping is the fact that ______________________________. ___________________________________. ___________________________________________________________________________. _____________________________________________.

Like, are you really tryna PRE me!?!?

*shakes head*

There's nothing I can currently do about that situation. A promise is a promise, and I can't afford to lie.

The dumbest part about it all is that I've been soooo happy for the past two months. I'm not sad now, fyi, I'm just saying.. It saddens me, but not to that extreme. I'm not moping, I'm living. I'm loving pretty much every day, which is abnormal to me. Last year, Jess and I had amazing days and nights and everyone wondered how it could be, so much bliss thru so much bullshit. It's pretty much the same thing, but w/ a dif cast of characters. You would THINK I'd be completely miserable, super-emo and upset.. But....

It's just the stuff up ^. I'm happy b/c it's something only I can fix, not caused by a waterfall of drama or anything. My life isn't drama-free, don't eeeeeever think that, but the drama is something easily dealt w/, - that paragraph of _____, lol. THAT is easily dealt w/, but I can't deal w/ it. LOL.

OH MY FUCKING GOD, HOUSTON, WE NO LONGER HAVE A PROBLEM. Lisa R. Williams (that would be me) is a complete and utter idiot, holy hot fries..

LMMMMMMMMMMMFAO... REALLY!?!? Some genius, eh?? I can-NOT believe I never thought of that...

Simple bitches never prosper. Use your goddamn head once in a while, m'kay?? I just did, and I feel fantastic now. God bless the flash drive.

Woooow, I know I'm not making ANY sense @ all, but work w/ me here. I am going to write my happy fat ass off when I get home. I suuuuuure as fuck am, cuz I can just save it all where I've BEEN saving it, durrrr.

Btw, totally losing weight still even tho I suuuuper slacked off for a good month and a half. Wasn't eating out or anything, just not doing nearly as much to combat the bulge as I was @ Gmas.. However, it's not that bad b/c I'm soooo much more active in my daily life w/o working out all the time, so I'm gonna have to get back on the ball and keep it poppin. A bitch has ELBOWS again. Do you know what that feels like? I know it SOUNDS crazy, but it's awesome. And I can see the veins in my hand. Aaaaaaand ..... Well, I'll just wait and let you see, no sense in talking about it. I need to take new pics! Not having my phone is kicking my ass, let me tell you!

Gracie pointed that out yesterday.. I'm so used to having like 143 new pics a week, sometimes a day.. I want to take vids and pics, but I don't want to use a reg camera for some reason. I think it's b/c I don't have a phone. Yeah, that must be it.. Why else?? It's dumb, lol. Esp since I could have better resolution w/ an actual camera, durrr Lisa..

Today is a good day for thought processing. I love you, blog. Something told me to just open this and let'er rip.

I've gotta go and help my Mama out, so I'm ghostface, but I fuckin' miss the dog piss out of a lot of you and just don't have a way to tell you, not the way I'd like to. Some of you that I miss, I really don't want to and it's for the best that I leave it that way. Isn't it? Is that not one of the reasons I have a lot less drama?? It must be. The timetable fits perfectly.