HERE WE FUCKIN' GO AGAIN!!!
WHY DID I CALL YOU!?!? WHHHHHYYYYYY??? I BROUGHT IT ON MYSELF.
Let the fucking games begin.
I will eat you ALIVE, bitch. Like the PREDATOR I am.
Holy shit.
Is it REALLY that easy to lose YOUR attention, btw? This new anxiety is all your fault.
Actually, I know the answer to that like a mowfucka, so yeah.. It IS.
Go Ask Alice.
OMFG.
BARF. There's seriously an acidy spit forming in my mouth. I wish I could remove the black widow SOMEONE just caught on their ARM and make it kill you.
And then me. There's a few hours left on my bday DEADline, yanno..
Nah.. I'm actually quite stoked for tomorrow, even w/ no concrete plans. Like I said tho, Chichos on 29th makes the most sense. Or @ least saying it on here does, cuz I'm not gonna call most of you. Just go there. At some point. LOL.
There are obv people I know you could call.. Like Lauren... Fuck it, w/e just make sure them $10 gifts come pouring in, thanks.
And nooooooo, Jessika, I have NOT forgotten about your awesomeness, this is merely a courtesy call. I luhh you, boo!
Hm.. Is it supposed to rain tomorrow?? I really dgaf, it rained in the early am of my bday last year and Jess and I just played Jungle Golf right thru it. It was like 3-4 am, @ that.
K sooooooooo, um... I think that's it. Love you bitches, hope to see ya soon!
PS, the next blog I maaaaaaay post is pre-scripted, fyi. If I don't post it, disregard this message, ty lol.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Morgan, your music is TOTALLY distracting me...
Like, seriously. I can't even type right now.. I need some headphones, wtf.. Ooooook, now that it's Vanessa Williams, I'm chillin..
"Sometimes the snoooow comes doooown in June....."
Anyway, hellooooooooo, niggerfaggots!! It's been a grip, right? Soooo much and so little has taken place in my life.. My sister had the baby Jun 6, and his name is Josiah. He waaaas... I think an oz under 6 lbs and 20 inches.. Long in the legs, just like the rest of us. The father is short, so that's pleasing.
The new generation of insane Williams children! Sorry for ya, kiddo.. Your mom is a ROYAL cunt. Saaaaaame goes for the Gma, haha... I can't wait til he's old enough for me to really tell him that. By then, I'm sure he'll have figured that part out.
Isn't he cuuuuuuuuute?? My Aunt Nene sent him that from Roanoke, along w/ a bunch of other shit. B/t the two of us, the boy is g'd up forever.. I just brought him 3 new pairs of shoes last night, on top of the 3 I gave her @ the shower.. Maaaaaaad clothes, too, omg.. I think I went overboard but I mean, it's my first nephew by blood so obv I'm gonna go all-out. And it's my baby sis, if she needs something and Iiiii can get it, obv I am. Like the cloth diapers for the burpy grossy stuff.. Apparently no one could find the ones I did, the ones that are thick?? W/e hos, I asked a CUSTOMER @ WM and they helped me find it, sooo. Maybe we just have a better Wally World??
Sooooooo yeah, the kid is hella cute and I dare you to say otherwise.. I'll delete you, right off buck @ that, haha.. Can't believe my sis pushed that cute fucker out. J/k, LA, you know I love you lol.. Weird how the youngest was the first to pop. But for real, I know it wasn't gonna be me or Lu so that obv left her. Lu is too selfish to have someone more important than him in his life, and I thought I was but maybe time has changed that. We shall see. Not ANYTIME soon, just prob not aaaaaaaaassssssss far into the future. Is that my 5-year plan??
Hey, even if it was, that works out b/c Larry and I talked about it one night walking.. If I got PG I'd just raise the kid in the house lol. Not PG by HIM, btw.. For anyone not sure of who I'm talking about. Just kill me now! I'd have a lil Webb just cuz they're so cute, but just for myself, not to raise w/ the father. Technically, I still would be, but not in the lovey way. Is that even possible?? Can you live w/ your sperm donor if he's not gay and have it neeeever become conflict?? Tawk amongst yaselves.
Whiiiiiiile you're doing that let me DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEE OMFG I TOTALLY MET MY MAN-BRIDE THE DAY OF THE NKOTB SHOW OMFG DGHDSOFHGIDSHFJFIOJEFOIJEIOF;MIOMDIOESMDCIEJIOFJSMIOM _______________________________________________.
I FUCKING DID IT, FOLKS. And I said I would. I deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeef met Jesse McCartney, and DEEEEEEEEEEF fucking DIED, thanks. OMFG. I'm throwing up all over the keyboard, amazing how I can still get this story out in spite of that. LKLDJFKLSAMDLKASMKXLASMF. HE WAS SO FUCKING HOT, EW.
UGH. I spazzed when I saw him. Not TO him, duh. I'm too pro for that. B Diz, I know you feel me on THAT. HOW many awesome people have we met where we just Van Damme it until we get in the car. Liiiiiiike Faisst, etc. We got around the CORNER and shit bricks. So imagine when I saw JM standing in the hallway.. HOLY shit. I turned to every 14 yo near me and word vomited for like a full minute. I was like, "OMFG THERE HE IS. OMFG HE'S SO HOT OMFG I AM DEF GOING TO THROW THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOOOOOOOOOOMFG HIS OUTFIT, HE'S SOOOO FUCKING CUTE." lol... And MY smart ass.......
"Hi, I'm Jesse" (extends hand)
"Apparently.. (holds out poster of JM) That's what they tell me, anyway."
MEEEEEEANWHILE, I was fucking DYING to throw up all over him. I haven't even looked @ the pic yet. I want it to stay fresh in my mind the way I remember it.
AND DOOOOOOOON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE FACT THAT I WAS THISCLOSE TO A FUCKING WAHLBERG @ ONE POINT, ALONG W/ JOEY AND DANNY. SHUUUUUUUUUT THEEEEEEEE FUCK UP PLEASE THANKS OMFG NOW I AM REALLY DYING, DSOIHIGODSHGKDSJPFJLSDPF. BLOGGING IS THE BEST THING IN THE WURRRRRRRRRLD, THANKS. I NEEDED TO LET THAT OUT. The magical moments I speak of cannot be replaced, ever. A real-live Wahlberg.. Oh my... I don't mean like, front row barrier mad far status, I mean that nigga went RIGHT past me, prob like 5 feet away. I could've eaten him alive right then and there. I seriously can't even talk about that night or my blood pressure will hit the fucking roof. I screamed like I was in labor, I stg. ALLLL fucking night. I'm glad my sis had the baby the next day, and not on the 5th cuz I'da hated to msg her like, "Um, def @ New Kids, sooooooo........." :|
Anyway.. I don't even know what else to say.. There's so many funny stories, but I'm glad to have gotten those out. My soul needs blogging but Grace is working on a fix for that. Technically I could just bring my ass to VA every week like I'm supposed to, but things change. Shit happens. Don't you think I miss my weekly tea and crumpets w/ Ka?? HARDCORE. And biiiiiitch, there's SO much to talk to YOOOOUUU about. LET me tell YOU. I prooooobably will be here Thurs, jbc of that. We have our non-$2 Tues Thursdays where we just gossip for like 3 hours in the restaurant, and I NEEEEEED that, STAT. Like, wtf is faster than that?? That's when I need it. OTHER than today cuz I'm on a mission to get some shit done.
Deeeef about to go see Gracie, Foxiest Mama of all.. I left my birth cert w/ my other stuff in her garage like a jacky and everytime I go over there (which def isn't that often) I forget. NOT today, bitch. I need that mafaka..
Aaaaand she has a vaporizer she wants me to try out. Oh lawdy! ;)
Can't wait to molest that sweet ass.
Uhh, what was I juuuust thinking, stfu.... OH! I had a blizz-ast @ Brent's and then T-Ravs last night. LOL @ how many people just went "And you couldn't have CALLED ME!??!"
No, bitches, apparently not. Don't get mad, cuz I got in "late" and def spent like an hour @ my Mas when I went to drop of baby shit. Blame that on Mo, who refused to put Jojo down. Not that I was in a rush to leave. He's so fucking cute. Awesome. And we were waiting for Buttons to realize where he was. He was confused on his whereabouts, which only makes sense if you know Rob. Def kicked it maaaad hard yesterday. His girl was there, and so was SAAAARAAAAAAAH, who gave me YET ANOTHER awesomely painful guilt trip about my lack of appearances in Derby Run. And I told on myself so many times that she just laughed and said the worst part is IIII am fueling it all by telling her times I've been around, just not in the Run, or something else like that. She shot me so many evil looks, jeeeez. My fucking BAD, people! It's just... I dunno.
HOWEVER....... While I can appreciate all your concern, I'm learning a valuable life lesson I couldn't have recieved anywhere else, and that pleases me. Def learning to love things I never thought I would, or @ least never would have admitted to any of you and part of it I still won't. You already know how I am.. But there's a certain comfort in not being known all over. You are the magnificent maestro of your affairs and goings-on and w/e people know about you in the factual manner is solely based on your output.
Sooo, to anyone trying to use the Jaws of Life to extract me, don't let me cry wolf for too long, b/c I def LOVE it more than you know. Let's start w/ the fact that I could be a visable force in your lives almost everyday if I chose to. But the choice is to be where I am, so obv something there is keeping it that way. There are def gripes, but your perception of the situation is mostly incorrect, and I prefer that over you having a full-scale view into my life. Yes, he is a controlling asshole but that's never gotten in the way of our friendship before, why would it now?? LMFAO.
Esssssp after he jumped into my SOUL and snatched out one of my greatest desires and wishes in life, and randomly suggested it after a week of me mulling over it. STFU, really?? We'd already been having a lot of moments like that, but that was the seal of fate. I still cannot believe he said it. You may as well skip to the bottom if you're waiting for me to reveal what it was, cuz it's not happening.
The only thing that is happening right now is the conclusion of this blog. As usual, it's never the end of the story, but it IIISSS the end of the blog.
PS, I met Jesse McCartney. Just remember that.
PPS, I still loooooove this song/video... Rawrr!
"Sometimes the snoooow comes doooown in June....."
Anyway, hellooooooooo, niggerfaggots!! It's been a grip, right? Soooo much and so little has taken place in my life.. My sister had the baby Jun 6, and his name is Josiah. He waaaas... I think an oz under 6 lbs and 20 inches.. Long in the legs, just like the rest of us. The father is short, so that's pleasing.
The new generation of insane Williams children! Sorry for ya, kiddo.. Your mom is a ROYAL cunt. Saaaaaame goes for the Gma, haha... I can't wait til he's old enough for me to really tell him that. By then, I'm sure he'll have figured that part out.
Isn't he cuuuuuuuuute?? My Aunt Nene sent him that from Roanoke, along w/ a bunch of other shit. B/t the two of us, the boy is g'd up forever.. I just brought him 3 new pairs of shoes last night, on top of the 3 I gave her @ the shower.. Maaaaaaad clothes, too, omg.. I think I went overboard but I mean, it's my first nephew by blood so obv I'm gonna go all-out. And it's my baby sis, if she needs something and Iiiii can get it, obv I am. Like the cloth diapers for the burpy grossy stuff.. Apparently no one could find the ones I did, the ones that are thick?? W/e hos, I asked a CUSTOMER @ WM and they helped me find it, sooo. Maybe we just have a better Wally World??
Sooooooo yeah, the kid is hella cute and I dare you to say otherwise.. I'll delete you, right off buck @ that, haha.. Can't believe my sis pushed that cute fucker out. J/k, LA, you know I love you lol.. Weird how the youngest was the first to pop. But for real, I know it wasn't gonna be me or Lu so that obv left her. Lu is too selfish to have someone more important than him in his life, and I thought I was but maybe time has changed that. We shall see. Not ANYTIME soon, just prob not aaaaaaaaassssssss far into the future. Is that my 5-year plan??
Hey, even if it was, that works out b/c Larry and I talked about it one night walking.. If I got PG I'd just raise the kid in the house lol. Not PG by HIM, btw.. For anyone not sure of who I'm talking about. Just kill me now! I'd have a lil Webb just cuz they're so cute, but just for myself, not to raise w/ the father. Technically, I still would be, but not in the lovey way. Is that even possible?? Can you live w/ your sperm donor if he's not gay and have it neeeever become conflict?? Tawk amongst yaselves.
Whiiiiiiile you're doing that let me DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEE OMFG I TOTALLY MET MY MAN-BRIDE THE DAY OF THE NKOTB SHOW OMFG DGHDSOFHGIDSHFJFIOJEFOIJEIOF;MIOMDIOESMDCIEJIOFJSMIOM _______________________________________________.
I FUCKING DID IT, FOLKS. And I said I would. I deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeef met Jesse McCartney, and DEEEEEEEEEEF fucking DIED, thanks. OMFG. I'm throwing up all over the keyboard, amazing how I can still get this story out in spite of that. LKLDJFKLSAMDLKASMKXLASMF. HE WAS SO FUCKING HOT, EW.
UGH. I spazzed when I saw him. Not TO him, duh. I'm too pro for that. B Diz, I know you feel me on THAT. HOW many awesome people have we met where we just Van Damme it until we get in the car. Liiiiiiike Faisst, etc. We got around the CORNER and shit bricks. So imagine when I saw JM standing in the hallway.. HOLY shit. I turned to every 14 yo near me and word vomited for like a full minute. I was like, "OMFG THERE HE IS. OMFG HE'S SO HOT OMFG I AM DEF GOING TO THROW THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOOOOOOOOOOMFG HIS OUTFIT, HE'S SOOOO FUCKING CUTE." lol... And MY smart ass.......
"Hi, I'm Jesse" (extends hand)
"Apparently.. (holds out poster of JM) That's what they tell me, anyway."
MEEEEEEANWHILE, I was fucking DYING to throw up all over him. I haven't even looked @ the pic yet. I want it to stay fresh in my mind the way I remember it.
AND DOOOOOOOON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE FACT THAT I WAS THISCLOSE TO A FUCKING WAHLBERG @ ONE POINT, ALONG W/ JOEY AND DANNY. SHUUUUUUUUUT THEEEEEEEE FUCK UP PLEASE THANKS OMFG NOW I AM REALLY DYING, DSOIHIGODSHGKDSJPFJLSDPF. BLOGGING IS THE BEST THING IN THE WURRRRRRRRRLD, THANKS. I NEEDED TO LET THAT OUT. The magical moments I speak of cannot be replaced, ever. A real-live Wahlberg.. Oh my... I don't mean like, front row barrier mad far status, I mean that nigga went RIGHT past me, prob like 5 feet away. I could've eaten him alive right then and there. I seriously can't even talk about that night or my blood pressure will hit the fucking roof. I screamed like I was in labor, I stg. ALLLL fucking night. I'm glad my sis had the baby the next day, and not on the 5th cuz I'da hated to msg her like, "Um, def @ New Kids, sooooooo........." :|
Anyway.. I don't even know what else to say.. There's so many funny stories, but I'm glad to have gotten those out. My soul needs blogging but Grace is working on a fix for that. Technically I could just bring my ass to VA every week like I'm supposed to, but things change. Shit happens. Don't you think I miss my weekly tea and crumpets w/ Ka?? HARDCORE. And biiiiiitch, there's SO much to talk to YOOOOUUU about. LET me tell YOU. I prooooobably will be here Thurs, jbc of that. We have our non-$2 Tues Thursdays where we just gossip for like 3 hours in the restaurant, and I NEEEEEED that, STAT. Like, wtf is faster than that?? That's when I need it. OTHER than today cuz I'm on a mission to get some shit done.
Deeeef about to go see Gracie, Foxiest Mama of all.. I left my birth cert w/ my other stuff in her garage like a jacky and everytime I go over there (which def isn't that often) I forget. NOT today, bitch. I need that mafaka..
Aaaaand she has a vaporizer she wants me to try out. Oh lawdy! ;)
Can't wait to molest that sweet ass.
Uhh, what was I juuuust thinking, stfu.... OH! I had a blizz-ast @ Brent's and then T-Ravs last night. LOL @ how many people just went "And you couldn't have CALLED ME!??!"
No, bitches, apparently not. Don't get mad, cuz I got in "late" and def spent like an hour @ my Mas when I went to drop of baby shit. Blame that on Mo, who refused to put Jojo down. Not that I was in a rush to leave. He's so fucking cute. Awesome. And we were waiting for Buttons to realize where he was. He was confused on his whereabouts, which only makes sense if you know Rob. Def kicked it maaaad hard yesterday. His girl was there, and so was SAAAARAAAAAAAH, who gave me YET ANOTHER awesomely painful guilt trip about my lack of appearances in Derby Run. And I told on myself so many times that she just laughed and said the worst part is IIII am fueling it all by telling her times I've been around, just not in the Run, or something else like that. She shot me so many evil looks, jeeeez. My fucking BAD, people! It's just... I dunno.
HOWEVER....... While I can appreciate all your concern, I'm learning a valuable life lesson I couldn't have recieved anywhere else, and that pleases me. Def learning to love things I never thought I would, or @ least never would have admitted to any of you and part of it I still won't. You already know how I am.. But there's a certain comfort in not being known all over. You are the magnificent maestro of your affairs and goings-on and w/e people know about you in the factual manner is solely based on your output.
Sooo, to anyone trying to use the Jaws of Life to extract me, don't let me cry wolf for too long, b/c I def LOVE it more than you know. Let's start w/ the fact that I could be a visable force in your lives almost everyday if I chose to. But the choice is to be where I am, so obv something there is keeping it that way. There are def gripes, but your perception of the situation is mostly incorrect, and I prefer that over you having a full-scale view into my life. Yes, he is a controlling asshole but that's never gotten in the way of our friendship before, why would it now?? LMFAO.
Esssssp after he jumped into my SOUL and snatched out one of my greatest desires and wishes in life, and randomly suggested it after a week of me mulling over it. STFU, really?? We'd already been having a lot of moments like that, but that was the seal of fate. I still cannot believe he said it. You may as well skip to the bottom if you're waiting for me to reveal what it was, cuz it's not happening.
The only thing that is happening right now is the conclusion of this blog. As usual, it's never the end of the story, but it IIISSS the end of the blog.
PS, I met Jesse McCartney. Just remember that.
PPS, I still loooooove this song/video... Rawrr!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Kibbles & bitches....
I feel like my current living situation is allowing me to be a lot more lax about things than I should be. It's not like I'm not writing, but there are so many other aspects to it. I don't want to complain b/c it almost feels like there's no reason to be. Does that make sense?? I just.......... I dunno. Time management. My life's clock against the time-consuming lifestyle of everything and nothing.
It has nothing to do w/ anyone or anything but me, so it's just this internal ball of wtf.. Like, even the blogging.. This isn't the only place I'm known for writing, but that's another part of me that's w/e...
I feel like I go to sleep @ night on a bed of quicksand. Does THAT make sense?? Like another night of rest begats another day of troubled thoughts and feelings. There's something I should and COULD be doing, and I'm not. I bear the burden of knowing better, and an even heavier burden that rests on a particularly prickly part of my poor brain.
bnhi nim nacho (I just used Nacho's paw to type "Hi, I'm Nacho" lol)
What's not helping is the fact that ______________________________. ___________________________________. ___________________________________________________________________________. _____________________________________________.
Like, are you really tryna PRE me!?!?
*shakes head*
There's nothing I can currently do about that situation. A promise is a promise, and I can't afford to lie.
The dumbest part about it all is that I've been soooo happy for the past two months. I'm not sad now, fyi, I'm just saying.. It saddens me, but not to that extreme. I'm not moping, I'm living. I'm loving pretty much every day, which is abnormal to me. Last year, Jess and I had amazing days and nights and everyone wondered how it could be, so much bliss thru so much bullshit. It's pretty much the same thing, but w/ a dif cast of characters. You would THINK I'd be completely miserable, super-emo and upset.. But....
It's just the stuff up ^. I'm happy b/c it's something only I can fix, not caused by a waterfall of drama or anything. My life isn't drama-free, don't eeeeeever think that, but the drama is something easily dealt w/, - that paragraph of _____, lol. THAT is easily dealt w/, but I can't deal w/ it. LOL.
OH MY FUCKING GOD, HOUSTON, WE NO LONGER HAVE A PROBLEM. Lisa R. Williams (that would be me) is a complete and utter idiot, holy hot fries..
LMMMMMMMMMMMFAO... REALLY!?!? Some genius, eh?? I can-NOT believe I never thought of that...
Simple bitches never prosper. Use your goddamn head once in a while, m'kay?? I just did, and I feel fantastic now. God bless the flash drive.
Woooow, I know I'm not making ANY sense @ all, but work w/ me here. I am going to write my happy fat ass off when I get home. I suuuuuure as fuck am, cuz I can just save it all where I've BEEN saving it, durrrr.
Btw, totally losing weight still even tho I suuuuper slacked off for a good month and a half. Wasn't eating out or anything, just not doing nearly as much to combat the bulge as I was @ Gmas.. However, it's not that bad b/c I'm soooo much more active in my daily life w/o working out all the time, so I'm gonna have to get back on the ball and keep it poppin. A bitch has ELBOWS again. Do you know what that feels like? I know it SOUNDS crazy, but it's awesome. And I can see the veins in my hand. Aaaaaaand ..... Well, I'll just wait and let you see, no sense in talking about it. I need to take new pics! Not having my phone is kicking my ass, let me tell you!
Gracie pointed that out yesterday.. I'm so used to having like 143 new pics a week, sometimes a day.. I want to take vids and pics, but I don't want to use a reg camera for some reason. I think it's b/c I don't have a phone. Yeah, that must be it.. Why else?? It's dumb, lol. Esp since I could have better resolution w/ an actual camera, durrr Lisa..
Today is a good day for thought processing. I love you, blog. Something told me to just open this and let'er rip.
I've gotta go and help my Mama out, so I'm ghostface, but I fuckin' miss the dog piss out of a lot of you and just don't have a way to tell you, not the way I'd like to. Some of you that I miss, I really don't want to and it's for the best that I leave it that way. Isn't it? Is that not one of the reasons I have a lot less drama?? It must be. The timetable fits perfectly.
It has nothing to do w/ anyone or anything but me, so it's just this internal ball of wtf.. Like, even the blogging.. This isn't the only place I'm known for writing, but that's another part of me that's w/e...
I feel like I go to sleep @ night on a bed of quicksand. Does THAT make sense?? Like another night of rest begats another day of troubled thoughts and feelings. There's something I should and COULD be doing, and I'm not. I bear the burden of knowing better, and an even heavier burden that rests on a particularly prickly part of my poor brain.
bnhi nim nacho (I just used Nacho's paw to type "Hi, I'm Nacho" lol)
What's not helping is the fact that ______________________________. ___________________________________. ___________________________________________________________________________. _____________________________________________.
Like, are you really tryna PRE me!?!?
*shakes head*
There's nothing I can currently do about that situation. A promise is a promise, and I can't afford to lie.
The dumbest part about it all is that I've been soooo happy for the past two months. I'm not sad now, fyi, I'm just saying.. It saddens me, but not to that extreme. I'm not moping, I'm living. I'm loving pretty much every day, which is abnormal to me. Last year, Jess and I had amazing days and nights and everyone wondered how it could be, so much bliss thru so much bullshit. It's pretty much the same thing, but w/ a dif cast of characters. You would THINK I'd be completely miserable, super-emo and upset.. But....
It's just the stuff up ^. I'm happy b/c it's something only I can fix, not caused by a waterfall of drama or anything. My life isn't drama-free, don't eeeeeever think that, but the drama is something easily dealt w/, - that paragraph of _____, lol. THAT is easily dealt w/, but I can't deal w/ it. LOL.
OH MY FUCKING GOD, HOUSTON, WE NO LONGER HAVE A PROBLEM. Lisa R. Williams (that would be me) is a complete and utter idiot, holy hot fries..
LMMMMMMMMMMMFAO... REALLY!?!? Some genius, eh?? I can-NOT believe I never thought of that...
Simple bitches never prosper. Use your goddamn head once in a while, m'kay?? I just did, and I feel fantastic now. God bless the flash drive.
Woooow, I know I'm not making ANY sense @ all, but work w/ me here. I am going to write my happy fat ass off when I get home. I suuuuuure as fuck am, cuz I can just save it all where I've BEEN saving it, durrrr.
Btw, totally losing weight still even tho I suuuuper slacked off for a good month and a half. Wasn't eating out or anything, just not doing nearly as much to combat the bulge as I was @ Gmas.. However, it's not that bad b/c I'm soooo much more active in my daily life w/o working out all the time, so I'm gonna have to get back on the ball and keep it poppin. A bitch has ELBOWS again. Do you know what that feels like? I know it SOUNDS crazy, but it's awesome. And I can see the veins in my hand. Aaaaaaand ..... Well, I'll just wait and let you see, no sense in talking about it. I need to take new pics! Not having my phone is kicking my ass, let me tell you!
Gracie pointed that out yesterday.. I'm so used to having like 143 new pics a week, sometimes a day.. I want to take vids and pics, but I don't want to use a reg camera for some reason. I think it's b/c I don't have a phone. Yeah, that must be it.. Why else?? It's dumb, lol. Esp since I could have better resolution w/ an actual camera, durrr Lisa..
Today is a good day for thought processing. I love you, blog. Something told me to just open this and let'er rip.
I've gotta go and help my Mama out, so I'm ghostface, but I fuckin' miss the dog piss out of a lot of you and just don't have a way to tell you, not the way I'd like to. Some of you that I miss, I really don't want to and it's for the best that I leave it that way. Isn't it? Is that not one of the reasons I have a lot less drama?? It must be. The timetable fits perfectly.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
The funniest part about Dani's blog....
isn't even the fact that she has zero room to be calling out someone else's lack of morality/true sense of friendship, (c'mon now, girl ya done been thru some shit lol)... No, def not it. It's how insanely true some of that shit was.. It's the same shit I said the last time I posted about the gossip/rumor shit.. I've been thru shit w/ Lauren since then, it just never made it's way to a blog.. Odd tho, cuz that was some real shit.....
But I digress!!! This isn't about us, this is about everyone being full of shit. This is exactly what Dani wrote, copy and pasted. Not the entire blog, just the part that really struck me as HILARIOUS;
"WHATS FUNNY TO ME iS THE PEOPLE THAT SEEM TO BE SO JUDGEiNG ARE THE PEOPLE WHO FUCK iN THEiR OWN LiFE AS WELL. YOU MiGHT NOT DO ALL THE THiNGS THAT i DO BUT COME ON LETS GET REAL! YOU PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKiNG iGNORANT. YOU WALK AROUND SAYiNG HOW YOU ALL HAVE THE BEST FRiENDS iN ONE ANOTHER BUT i SiT && LAUGH AT YOU. YOU TALK SO MUCH SHiT ABOUT ONE ANOTHER && THEN LEAVE COMMENTS ON EACH OTHERS PAGE SAYiNG " i LOVE YOU GiRL"! LMFAO!! YEAH WHAT YOU ARE iS FAKE. AT LEAST i CAN ADMiT WHAT i AM. YOU ALL HiDE && ACT LiKE YOU ARE SOMETHiNG THAT YOU AiN'T. i CAN'T EVEN COUNT HOW MANY TiMES iN THE PAST MONTHS HOW MANY TiMES i HEARD SHiT ABOUT EACH OF YOU && iTS COMMiNG FROM YOUR SO CALLED FRiENDS. i DON'T GiVE A FLYiNG RATS ASS WHAT YOU THiNK OF ME. YOU CAN ALL THiNK WHAT YOU WiLL OF ME. i AM WHO i AM! YOU GUYS THiNK B/C YOUR ON SOMEONES TOP FRiENDS OR YOU LiVE WiTH SOMEONE THEY ARE YOUR B/F && AREN'T TALKiNG SHiT. LOL GUESS WHAT THEY ARE BiTCHES! YOU CAN ALL FEEL FREE TO HATE ON ME && MY LiFE B/C iTS NOT MAKEiNG YOURS ANY BETTER!!! BUH BYE....."
TRUUUUUE MOTHERFUCKIN' STORY RIGHT THERE... Thank you!! Danielle, seriously........... Fucking THANK YOU!!! Everyone is pointing fingers, like it's just the cool thing to do.. We're all guilty so who even fucking cares anymore?? It only matters when you get caught, or think you're catching someone but the person who told you is probably the person who said it/initiated the convo in which the comment was made..
Good golly! THANK YOU!!! I'm not trying to be a dick to anyone, this isn't about my friendships, whether they be current or broken.. This is just a thank you note, someone else telling the fucking truth!! I don't know wtf is going on w/ her and Bryn, etc, I just read the blog the same way you did and def have noooooooo comment on the matter. It's just....
It's just FUCKING GRAND, is all. Suck my dick from the back, everyone!! Esp if you call yourself telling on people, that he said/she said bullshit. I don't even waste my time w/ sources, who believes anything anymore?? Half the shit people tell you someone said about them, they half believe it themselves or agree.. They just want you to know that w/o having to be the one to tell you. Ain't that some shit?? Worse than liquid courage, or talking shit when certain people are around...
I wish a bitch WOULD tell me to my face half the shit I hear about... Oh, god! I think I prefer it this way... Hearing about something gives you time to decide if you gaf or not.. If you don't, you just talk a little shit back to whoever told you and carry on w/ your day, not really sure if they're gonna turn around and do the same thing w/ said shit-talker, but not really caring either way.
At least, not if you're me... Some people go to great lengths to keep their salacious lies and bullshit w/i a closely cropped circle.. However, it rarely works out that way, and things end up the way Dani's friendships w/ the people she wrote about do, or some of my friendships as of late...
Another thing I love is when someone who is clearly guilty of talking the same amount of shit will go on the defensive like they've had your back since day 1, not really allowing the truth to come out. Like say if someone called them out during an argument w/ someone else, and they denied it w/ a bunch of shit-talking towards the conduit of truth about how they're full of shit and this, that, and the goddamn 3rd...
Everyone's so ballsy, ey...? That's how we're doin' it?? All of your balls could fit into my left sac comfortably w/ my own ball still in it. That's what I think of your mouths, your "bravery". Get off the phone, get off the computer, get in some grills, or go to fuckin' bed already, take a nap ya goddamn fetuses.. Do you not realize that this is child's play? All of it.
This isn't even my life right now.. I've got starry skies, high neighbors, the harbor and quiet happiness. I've got some shit goin' on still, don't think it's all pastels and pussy, it's just not all of that up there. It's not a finished book/screenplay either, so it's still not the outcome I want, but it's not the once-inevitable circle of utter bullshit.
I dig it.
This is the song/video I hear when I think about or encounter haters... My imaginary long Asian hair just whips in the wind as I shred on your fucking souls, lmmmmmfao.. Fuuuuuck you!
That bitch the other day shoulda hated on me, esp when I placed my entire aura of life b/t her and her man, and proceeded to make away like the thief that I am!
That's how ya do it, girls.. Right in their faces, so you don't have to hear all of that "You ______ behind my back!!" shit, hahaha... Here's my middle finger, right in the center of your stupid pupils.. Suck on it, just like it's my diiiiiiiiiick.........!!!
Muahaha!! And he called YOU a devil..........
But I digress!!! This isn't about us, this is about everyone being full of shit. This is exactly what Dani wrote, copy and pasted. Not the entire blog, just the part that really struck me as HILARIOUS;
"WHATS FUNNY TO ME iS THE PEOPLE THAT SEEM TO BE SO JUDGEiNG ARE THE PEOPLE WHO FUCK iN THEiR OWN LiFE AS WELL. YOU MiGHT NOT DO ALL THE THiNGS THAT i DO BUT COME ON LETS GET REAL! YOU PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKiNG iGNORANT. YOU WALK AROUND SAYiNG HOW YOU ALL HAVE THE BEST FRiENDS iN ONE ANOTHER BUT i SiT && LAUGH AT YOU. YOU TALK SO MUCH SHiT ABOUT ONE ANOTHER && THEN LEAVE COMMENTS ON EACH OTHERS PAGE SAYiNG " i LOVE YOU GiRL"! LMFAO!! YEAH WHAT YOU ARE iS FAKE. AT LEAST i CAN ADMiT WHAT i AM. YOU ALL HiDE && ACT LiKE YOU ARE SOMETHiNG THAT YOU AiN'T. i CAN'T EVEN COUNT HOW MANY TiMES iN THE PAST MONTHS HOW MANY TiMES i HEARD SHiT ABOUT EACH OF YOU && iTS COMMiNG FROM YOUR SO CALLED FRiENDS. i DON'T GiVE A FLYiNG RATS ASS WHAT YOU THiNK OF ME. YOU CAN ALL THiNK WHAT YOU WiLL OF ME. i AM WHO i AM! YOU GUYS THiNK B/C YOUR ON SOMEONES TOP FRiENDS OR YOU LiVE WiTH SOMEONE THEY ARE YOUR B/F && AREN'T TALKiNG SHiT. LOL GUESS WHAT THEY ARE BiTCHES! YOU CAN ALL FEEL FREE TO HATE ON ME && MY LiFE B/C iTS NOT MAKEiNG YOURS ANY BETTER!!! BUH BYE....."
TRUUUUUE MOTHERFUCKIN' STORY RIGHT THERE... Thank you!! Danielle, seriously........... Fucking THANK YOU!!! Everyone is pointing fingers, like it's just the cool thing to do.. We're all guilty so who even fucking cares anymore?? It only matters when you get caught, or think you're catching someone but the person who told you is probably the person who said it/initiated the convo in which the comment was made..
Good golly! THANK YOU!!! I'm not trying to be a dick to anyone, this isn't about my friendships, whether they be current or broken.. This is just a thank you note, someone else telling the fucking truth!! I don't know wtf is going on w/ her and Bryn, etc, I just read the blog the same way you did and def have noooooooo comment on the matter. It's just....
It's just FUCKING GRAND, is all. Suck my dick from the back, everyone!! Esp if you call yourself telling on people, that he said/she said bullshit. I don't even waste my time w/ sources, who believes anything anymore?? Half the shit people tell you someone said about them, they half believe it themselves or agree.. They just want you to know that w/o having to be the one to tell you. Ain't that some shit?? Worse than liquid courage, or talking shit when certain people are around...
I wish a bitch WOULD tell me to my face half the shit I hear about... Oh, god! I think I prefer it this way... Hearing about something gives you time to decide if you gaf or not.. If you don't, you just talk a little shit back to whoever told you and carry on w/ your day, not really sure if they're gonna turn around and do the same thing w/ said shit-talker, but not really caring either way.
At least, not if you're me... Some people go to great lengths to keep their salacious lies and bullshit w/i a closely cropped circle.. However, it rarely works out that way, and things end up the way Dani's friendships w/ the people she wrote about do, or some of my friendships as of late...
Another thing I love is when someone who is clearly guilty of talking the same amount of shit will go on the defensive like they've had your back since day 1, not really allowing the truth to come out. Like say if someone called them out during an argument w/ someone else, and they denied it w/ a bunch of shit-talking towards the conduit of truth about how they're full of shit and this, that, and the goddamn 3rd...
Everyone's so ballsy, ey...? That's how we're doin' it?? All of your balls could fit into my left sac comfortably w/ my own ball still in it. That's what I think of your mouths, your "bravery". Get off the phone, get off the computer, get in some grills, or go to fuckin' bed already, take a nap ya goddamn fetuses.. Do you not realize that this is child's play? All of it.
This isn't even my life right now.. I've got starry skies, high neighbors, the harbor and quiet happiness. I've got some shit goin' on still, don't think it's all pastels and pussy, it's just not all of that up there. It's not a finished book/screenplay either, so it's still not the outcome I want, but it's not the once-inevitable circle of utter bullshit.
I dig it.
This is the song/video I hear when I think about or encounter haters... My imaginary long Asian hair just whips in the wind as I shred on your fucking souls, lmmmmmfao.. Fuuuuuck you!
That bitch the other day shoulda hated on me, esp when I placed my entire aura of life b/t her and her man, and proceeded to make away like the thief that I am!
That's how ya do it, girls.. Right in their faces, so you don't have to hear all of that "You ______ behind my back!!" shit, hahaha... Here's my middle finger, right in the center of your stupid pupils.. Suck on it, just like it's my diiiiiiiiiick.........!!!
Muahaha!! And he called YOU a devil..........
Friday, February 20, 2009
I think I have a hernia....
A paraesophageal hernia, to be exact. Wouldn't that suck?? How do you find that out w/o being raped by Dr. Money?? Jeeeeeeeeeeez.. As if I don't have enough problems..
My Gma's sister died. I think yesterday. My mom told me yesterday when I was @ Brent's, and she was on the phone w/ my Gma when I called. Either way..... Jeeeeez.. Even THAT is causing me more headache than it should. I don't even want to think about that vomit-inducing shit.. Are solutions permanent?? Like, do permanent solutions exist?? Not in my line of work.
So much shit on my mind, it's ridiculous... I am a firm believer in escapism, so I've found ways around most of it, lol. Btw, Shaaaaaaay omfg, everything had us so fuckin' weak last night, haha.. Tell Josh I said ty lol and OMFG I DEF JUST REMEMBERED THE FRUIT BY THE FOOT YOU GAVE ME, WOOHOOOOOOO..
Sanctuary!
I need it. I kinda have one, but sooooooomething tells me...........
Nothing lasts forever, nothing but regret and bullshit. Bad decisions last a lifetime, don't they? LOL.....
Morgan, where you be @?? I need to talk to yoooouuuuu, honeydear..
My world gets better & worse @ the same time, all the time.. WTF!! My mood is already set to 'busy'... Which I'm not, not physically. It's my BRAIN that's busy... I don't even have time to think, all thought time is taken up unvoluntarily, but that's just me..
I don't mean for this to sound like I'm just having a horrible time w/ people/life etc.. There's an incredible amount of stability compared to previous months, cuz like I said before, Ka is hell-bent making me more human.. Humane?? Hm, maybe not so much, as I am still a sadistic asshole, but I found a lil Charmin..
I've had a lot of fun recently, which is what I always say so that just goes to show.. I have fun all the damn time, more than the average ho, I suppose.. I know what I'm NOT doing, so it's ok.. It could all be worse, but let's not think about that! I'm striving for the opposite effects.
Hm, totally forgot what I was about to say next... It was probably just a heavy sigh laced w/ laughter.
Ha, I just came up w/ some sick shit but I most def deleted it.. You'll prob see or read it eventually...
Oh, and btw.. Guess who's not coming to dinner?? My book, apparently. I haven't written in a grip.. Not like scary status, just a grip to ME.. The current situation will prob bring about a lot of notebook writing, which is what I've been heavily avoiding ever since I stopped avoiding it. Does that make sense??
It's me, does it really HAVE to?? No, lol.
Neither does this awesome segue into the new RuPaul video, which reminds me SO much of the one for 'What What (In The Butt)'... Put that bass in your walk!! That's my shit, haha....
And here's WW ITB;
Ahhhhhh... Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
My Gma's sister died. I think yesterday. My mom told me yesterday when I was @ Brent's, and she was on the phone w/ my Gma when I called. Either way..... Jeeeeez.. Even THAT is causing me more headache than it should. I don't even want to think about that vomit-inducing shit.. Are solutions permanent?? Like, do permanent solutions exist?? Not in my line of work.
So much shit on my mind, it's ridiculous... I am a firm believer in escapism, so I've found ways around most of it, lol. Btw, Shaaaaaaay omfg, everything had us so fuckin' weak last night, haha.. Tell Josh I said ty lol and OMFG I DEF JUST REMEMBERED THE FRUIT BY THE FOOT YOU GAVE ME, WOOHOOOOOOO..
Sanctuary!
I need it. I kinda have one, but sooooooomething tells me...........
Nothing lasts forever, nothing but regret and bullshit. Bad decisions last a lifetime, don't they? LOL.....
Morgan, where you be @?? I need to talk to yoooouuuuu, honeydear..
My world gets better & worse @ the same time, all the time.. WTF!! My mood is already set to 'busy'... Which I'm not, not physically. It's my BRAIN that's busy... I don't even have time to think, all thought time is taken up unvoluntarily, but that's just me..
I don't mean for this to sound like I'm just having a horrible time w/ people/life etc.. There's an incredible amount of stability compared to previous months, cuz like I said before, Ka is hell-bent making me more human.. Humane?? Hm, maybe not so much, as I am still a sadistic asshole, but I found a lil Charmin..
I've had a lot of fun recently, which is what I always say so that just goes to show.. I have fun all the damn time, more than the average ho, I suppose.. I know what I'm NOT doing, so it's ok.. It could all be worse, but let's not think about that! I'm striving for the opposite effects.
Hm, totally forgot what I was about to say next... It was probably just a heavy sigh laced w/ laughter.
Ha, I just came up w/ some sick shit but I most def deleted it.. You'll prob see or read it eventually...
Oh, and btw.. Guess who's not coming to dinner?? My book, apparently. I haven't written in a grip.. Not like scary status, just a grip to ME.. The current situation will prob bring about a lot of notebook writing, which is what I've been heavily avoiding ever since I stopped avoiding it. Does that make sense??
It's me, does it really HAVE to?? No, lol.
Neither does this awesome segue into the new RuPaul video, which reminds me SO much of the one for 'What What (In The Butt)'... Put that bass in your walk!! That's my shit, haha....
And here's WW ITB;
Ahhhhhh... Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Insomnia is a bitch.
I mean, seriously. If I weren't so afraid to Heath-out, I'd be taking sleeping pills. This has been an on-going thing since I was like 10 years old... That's 16 years of late-nite crap shows and an undying love affair w/ computers/cartoons lol..
And I want to be famous?? Then again, I function on little to no sleep as it is, usually only getting around 5-6 hours a night, and that's after dealing w/ all the bullshit I gotta deal w/.. Mad people I know complain about being tired all the time, but half of them do even less than I do during the daytime hours. Even w/ doing sit-ups etc, I have the energy.
This is why people smoke weed.. Has to be the only way to get a good night's rest these days...
I WANNA BE SEDATED.
But not really, cuz like I said before, the whole Heath thing is kinda :| soooo yeah. Plus, Brad said don't do drugs, haha..
OMFGAAAAAAAAAD.
And it's only going to get worse, watch.. Anything I plan on going after, career-wise, will leave me wide awake and drooling over random items on the internet.
Which, btw reminds me that I def wanted to post some things I'm currently coveting, I will soon tho. Whenever I get the chance. I always say that, but people don't understand how I am. I don't like going balls to the wall w/ people around me, I like a quiet riot. People who look over my shoulder, for any reason, should be shot in the face. I try to avoid doing that to people, unless they are obviously wanting you to look. I wish computers were only visible to the user. The screens @ least, that way I can clickity-clack in peace @ all times.
Don't you think?? That would be fantastic.
If I laugh, turn away. If I cry, turn away. If I cough, turn away.
This wasn't inspired by anything recently btw, it actually came from something I just saw on tv. It just reminded me of that, and thus began the rant haha.
PS, my belt looks like a crazy penis under my shirt. Why am I even still fully dressed?? Like I'm going somewhere AAAAAANYTIME soon. I mean, I have a lil trip tomorrow w/ a few places to stop and grab/drop shit off, but other than that...
Not tonight.........
I think I'm gonna go read. Everytime I get a few pages in, I pass out. Maaaaybe that's b/c.......
I dunno. Certain things just make you reeeeally tired.
This SOUNDS like some kind of insomniac rambling.... Someone said to me recently that I never go to sleep... Oh, JARED it was YO mafakin' ass.. Yeah, I prob will be up til 7, basically until my eeyeballs are dripping blood.
And then I'll get up @ 11 for The View.
*yawns*
K. Night.
PS, I really did yawn. Not that it matters, but yeah. And I feel another one comiiiiiii knew it.. Mm, yawns are scrumptious nummies to the soul.
Maybe that's why I suddenly can't stop? Is it a sign? Bedtime?? Ooh, wee!
PPS, I chose this video before I started the blog (sometimes, sometimes not) b/c thinking of staying awake made me think of Staying Alive, which btw I would love to do for as long as possible. Just thought I'd throw that out there.
*yawns for the 5th time*
Aaaaalrighty then.
And I want to be famous?? Then again, I function on little to no sleep as it is, usually only getting around 5-6 hours a night, and that's after dealing w/ all the bullshit I gotta deal w/.. Mad people I know complain about being tired all the time, but half of them do even less than I do during the daytime hours. Even w/ doing sit-ups etc, I have the energy.
This is why people smoke weed.. Has to be the only way to get a good night's rest these days...
I WANNA BE SEDATED.
But not really, cuz like I said before, the whole Heath thing is kinda :| soooo yeah. Plus, Brad said don't do drugs, haha..
OMFGAAAAAAAAAD.
And it's only going to get worse, watch.. Anything I plan on going after, career-wise, will leave me wide awake and drooling over random items on the internet.
Which, btw reminds me that I def wanted to post some things I'm currently coveting, I will soon tho. Whenever I get the chance. I always say that, but people don't understand how I am. I don't like going balls to the wall w/ people around me, I like a quiet riot. People who look over my shoulder, for any reason, should be shot in the face. I try to avoid doing that to people, unless they are obviously wanting you to look. I wish computers were only visible to the user. The screens @ least, that way I can clickity-clack in peace @ all times.
Don't you think?? That would be fantastic.
If I laugh, turn away. If I cry, turn away. If I cough, turn away.
This wasn't inspired by anything recently btw, it actually came from something I just saw on tv. It just reminded me of that, and thus began the rant haha.
PS, my belt looks like a crazy penis under my shirt. Why am I even still fully dressed?? Like I'm going somewhere AAAAAANYTIME soon. I mean, I have a lil trip tomorrow w/ a few places to stop and grab/drop shit off, but other than that...
Not tonight.........
I think I'm gonna go read. Everytime I get a few pages in, I pass out. Maaaaybe that's b/c.......
I dunno. Certain things just make you reeeeally tired.
This SOUNDS like some kind of insomniac rambling.... Someone said to me recently that I never go to sleep... Oh, JARED it was YO mafakin' ass.. Yeah, I prob will be up til 7, basically until my eeyeballs are dripping blood.
And then I'll get up @ 11 for The View.
*yawns*
K. Night.
PS, I really did yawn. Not that it matters, but yeah. And I feel another one comiiiiiii knew it.. Mm, yawns are scrumptious nummies to the soul.
Maybe that's why I suddenly can't stop? Is it a sign? Bedtime?? Ooh, wee!
PPS, I chose this video before I started the blog (sometimes, sometimes not) b/c thinking of staying awake made me think of Staying Alive, which btw I would love to do for as long as possible. Just thought I'd throw that out there.
*yawns for the 5th time*
Aaaaalrighty then.
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