"I don't wanna grow up, I'm a Toys-R-Us kid!"

But things change, people grow older, and you start to see things A LOT differently.

Which places me in the here and now, two weeks from turning 25. I've had a lot of funny feelings run thru me here in the last few months. I find myself listening to people younger than me (not like, 20-22, but like 14-16) talking, and it sounds like they're speaking a foreign language. I believe they call it "naivety" lol. One conversation in particular that I heard the other night sent me reeling back in time to when that convo would've been most certainly coming from me and another female friend, porbably Maudi... Not to say I don't still have COMPLETELY meaningless/gush-gush convos w/ the girlies, but damn..

I was a lil weirded out by turning a quarter-of-a-century not too long ago, but now, after much thought...

IIIIIII'M STILL A LIL "WTF"... Don't let me front... But it's not as daunting of a thought as it once was... I just feel more proud of all the things I HAVE done in this amount of time, instead of constantly dwelling on all that I have not... They still irk me, but I'm making (silent) progress. Not even gonna get into detail b/c that seems to make me procrastinate/depressed even more.

Luckily, I have music, and I can just pretend that the seemingly MARATHON-STATUS walk towards adulthood is more like Diana Ross & MJ circa 'The Wiz'. I'm just gonna ease on down, ease on down the rooooaaaad!



Brandi is going thru a similar life-changing moment. Keep in mind, what I have to say isn't meant to "burn" anyone, just stating what I know as fact.

She's in ♥ w/ Gregg, and he just left on deployment. I talked to her this morning and she sounds HORRIBLE. It makes me sad to see her all torn up like this! As much as I know and love her, I didn't see this coming @ all... Not today, but the entire situation as a whole. I didn't see her and Griff not being together, nor did I see her getting w/ Gregg and ONLY Gregg after she became "single", haha.. Love you, babycakes. Don't smack me for that one...! But you know what I mean... Her life as of late has been a new experience for her, as far as helping Gregg take care of Aiden, and being the support system for a Navy man (not boy) and being equally supported, to battling it out w/ his ex over the handling of their child, who btw, adores Brandi... I didn't see this coming from or FOR her, and no one else prob did either. Brandi... Taking care of a kid??? Playing the family role??? This bitch has an apt, and a puppy w/ him.. And is perfectly fine w/ sitting @ home (not house) w/ just the three of them, + Aiden when the occasion presents itself.

It's nutty! This year is just insane! I just hope we all make it out alive, and on top. I can't take another year like last year! Too much drama, not enough truth, ESPECIALLY within ourselves.